I Still Love You

Chapter One

Jessy's P.o.v

It's kind of difficult to forget things or people you know you need to forgive. I don't regret things in life because I know that they happen for a reason But I'll never understand why they happen I love how I've become even tho many don't

I'm Jessica Taylor but people call me Jessy, when I was 17 I fell in love deep I love with my bestfriend she was everything I've ever wanted and more

I could care less about what anyone had to say about it she was beautiful and she was all mine Rosalyn Pope was my everything

Her and I were inseparable we would go everywhere together and did everything together. We would text or call each other every night until we'd fall asleep
With each other I the other end

I didn't care who had anything to say about me or my sexuality because I was comfortable to say and be who I was I mean
everyone knew I was gay and it didn't bother me at all for people to know something so personal about me but that wasn't the case with Rosie she didn't tell anyone she was gay she wasn't ready well at least that's what she told me but I didn't complain and sometimes I think about it the "what if's"t

*flashback*

Rosie and I were in the garden of her beautiful home and all of a sudden her father came and snatched her away from me his harsh words still remain in my memories

"Stay away from my daughter you little dyke I never want to see you around her again" he said pushing me

I looked at him I was so confused he forced me out of his house away from her I was so upset who could have told him I kept thinking to my self only me and her knew well Ryan knew to but he was my bestfriend and he wouldn't do that to us

I still managed to talk to her sometimes she would go to her friends house and would use there phone or we would email each other

sometimes i would go and see her at the mall but the day eventually would end. we remained like this for a long time but it wasn't the same I missed her touch, her lips, her scent, I missed everything

One day I arrived home from school and my foster mom (yes I'm an orphan) told me that I'm moving that someone was nice enough to take me in I really didn't Pay any attention to what she said until she mentioned London

"London as in London England" I cut her off

She nodded and I ran out of the house I went to the only person who I knew would make me feel better

"Your leaving" she whispered embezzling her face into my chest

"Yes" was all I said

I really had no choice I was only 17 they had that power over me it broke me that night I didn't get home until midnight Rosie and I spoke the entire time i promised her that when I turn 18 I'll come get her and that we would runaway together and live happily far away from everything

When I left it was the worst day of my life I couldn't believe that this was happening to me I lost all hope and desire to live but Rosie always Being in my mind motivated me to keep going I was not kidding when I promised to go get her

We would email and occasionally call each other from time to time but It got hard for us days weeks and months passed and no word from her I started to worry but I'll remember that my birthday was close and that I'll soon be out of here and be reunited with the love of my life

I made my way out side to go get the mail I get so excited when I see mail in the mail box because I know that in it is a letter form for Rosie
When I saw her name in on envelope and mind went wild I couldn't wait to open I and when I didI found a printed letter which I was wired since she always wrote them than sent them but I guess she didn't have time or something

Letter

Dear Jessy ,

I can't do this long distance relationship and I can't trust you either I don't know if you will remain faithful to me for long I love you I really do but this is hard on me to sorry to break it off like this but I can't continue living like this I hope you understand

Sincerely Rosie

I remember reading the letter and thinking all these things what do you mean you can't do this anymore? Why would she think I wouldnt be faithful? I hope you understand? What kind of sink joke was she playing I tried to call her but no answer I tried writing back and nothing I couldn't believe she would do this to me to us it broke me completely

When I finally turned 18 I left the foster care I enrolled my self in college and focus on my future I never got over the break up but it made me who I am today I graduated and majored in photography and now 7 years later i became one of London's best photographers I'm well known in places I can't even pronounce this feels good it's what I've worked for and it's payed of and the opportunities it's given me I've had tea with the Queen and Now I have my own magazine I've worked with celebrities all over the world and I'm pretty satisfied with the outcome of my life

Present day

"Give me sexy give me passion " I asked the model posing In front of me while I took photos of her

"Yes oh my yes hold it right there yes your gorgeous baby and look at your eyes" I said giving her a little bit of encouragement

I was done with the photo shoot and now it's time to go help her out of her clothes if you know what I mean

20 minutes later

"Um Jessy sorry to interrupt your little fling here but we have to go sweetheart you have photo shoots in New York on Monday and groom to meet on Thursday ok let's go chop chop vamonos" my assistant Andrew said to me

"Ok I'm going and you please keep in touch because we are not done yet" I said to the model I just shot earlier

"Bye babe call me" she said kissing me one last time

I won't call her I probably won't even know her name but hey don't judge me

"So what about this groom I have to meet " I said buttoning my sleeves and putting my blazer on

"He lives in New York and he wants a professional photographer to surprise his fiancé but you need to meet so he knows who's going to be working on their wedding pictures but her fiancé so I need you to focus this week because we have a busy schedule I've booked some other thing I think you need to do in New York so please keep your tongue in your mouth I am begging you ok" he said

"Look you can tell me what's next in the agenda but you can't keep me from satisfaction ok remember that" I said walking out the penthouse towards my new convertible back Porsche personally imported from Italy it was my baby

"Your right I can't keep you from your little one night stands but I will tell you this your career is nothing without me so answer this who will ever put up with your bullshit other than me huh" he asked

"No one" I admitted

"And who is nobody with out Andrew" he asked again

"I am ok I'll keep focused but I won't promise anything so are you done with the pep talk because I have to go my friend is having a party and she wants me to attend" I said

"Yes I'm done but hey no drinking and you better be at the airport tomorrow at 6 on the dot ok " he said

"Andrew when am ever late baby " I said getting in my car

" im serious Jessy" he said leaning on the passenger window

"Look at me I am too ok now bye" I said speeding off

Andrew shock his head and grinned thinking about what he told jessy not to do knowing she will do the total opposite of what he said

"I swear if it wasn't because I cared about her or the fact that my pay check looks so good Ive already been gone" he said to him self

Beep beep

"talk to me" he said hitting the button on the Bluetooth he was wearing walking back to the penthouse