I'm Dying For You (Narry boyxboy fanfic)

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Hi I'm Niall. Niall James Horan. Nialler, Ni, Leprechaun... Whatever you want to call me. I am 18 years of age and in the band One Direction. I am currently living in London, just a couple blocks away from my amazing band mates. Now you probably think I am a normal teenage boy, understandable. But I'm not. I like guys. Not girls... They were never enough for me. Most importantly I'm in love. With a Mr. Harry Styles. He is amazing, wondrous, charming, flirtatious... everything. Including straight. Now I know you are all thinking Niall just tell him! But I can't. I fear rejection more than I fear waking up in the morning. Oh and one other thing. I am supposed to die in a couple months, so what's the point?

* Present day*

"Niall will you please just get in the car??" Liam said softly for the third time. He was making me go to the hospital. The boys didn't know why I had to go because I didn't want anyone to know. Not even my mum. I have stage 2 lung cancer. I only know because I was feeling sicker than usual and Liam took me to the hospital. The doctors asked if they could tell my family and band mates but I refused. It would kill them faster than it would kill me. I was told at the most I had three months unless of some miracle. I used to believe in miracles. Until my dad died. Now I think they are a waste.

"Niall!! Are you listening to me?" Liam was growing impatient. It didn't look good on him. I nodded and got into the car with a sigh. "Will you please tell me why you have to go back?" Liam added with tears forming in his eyes. I shook my head not trusting my voice. He sighed and leaned back in his seat looking disappointed. I knew he hated when I kept things from him but I couldn't break his heart by telling him. I needed to tell someone though. Soon I thought to myself. When I get the courage. I hugged Liam as the cab drove to the hospital.

Inside the big building it was quiet. Too quiet. I hated hospitals soo much. Liam checked me in and we waited. I decided to go on my phone. First I checked twitter. Lots of people asking what was wrong and why I was back at the hospital. I just said it was personal. Trying not to cry. I was going to miss our fans and everyone else. While signing out I noticed I had a text. Hey Ni! Good luck! We love you!! ~Lou :). I was about to text Louis back when I heard my name.

"Niall the doctor is waiting for your check up!" The nurse said cheerily like she had no clue what was going on.

**AUTHOR'S NOTE: Here's the first chapter. Lemme know whatcha think please!!

with love, Lexi**