Under protection

Call for prayer

We all were sitting in a lounge watching T.V
when i heard Azaan *The call of prayer* 

"Umm turn off the T.V" I said.

and all three boys were looking at me waiting to state a reason.

"Its Azaan going on." I continued..

Hadi rolled his mouth as if he is whispering 'Oh' and quickly turned off the T.V.

Everyone was silent, and the sound of Azaan was clear. It was peaceful !

"Umm dont you all pray?" I asked when the call of prayer ended.

"Sometimes." Azlaan said quitely while looking down to his fingers. He said in a tone as if he was guilty and in deep thoughts.

"Why?" I asked boldly.
"What about you two?"

"Umm sometimes" Sarim replied.

"Dont you all believe in him." I asked.

"We do, Obviously. But we are far far away from religion and there is no way we can get back to it."
Sarim replied while taking a long gasp.

"How do you know there is no way you can turn back towards the creator."

"Because we have come so so far, Its almost impossible." Hadi said hopelessly.

"Who said that, There is always a way out. He is the creator, the lord of the universe. He doesn't ask us for anything. You see all you have to do is just pray five times a day, Be a good human being, help people in need regardless of what religion, cast or creed they belong too. Talk to him, pray, remember him and will surely listen, He will response." I tried to explain them.

"Will He?" Azlaan looked up straight into my eyes and questioned me. Very seriously.

I gave him a small smile and nodded
"He definately will."

"Umm i think you all should go and pray now." I continued whilst all three of them were looking down to the floor, brooding.

"Aren't you all going to pray." I asked frettedly.

"Its just that we dont find ourselves good enough to stand infront of him." Sarim said while looking at his left side as if he doesn't want to face me.

"We all are sinners, we all make mistakes. That doesn't mean we can't pray. You see we can not stop living with the fear of being death oneday, We can not stop loving with the fear of getting apart oneday, Similarly we can'not stop trying with the fear of getting fail oneday, Which is not necessary. Because if we are honest, he will not let us fall." I explained him with a pinch of hope deep down in my heart that i may help them to see a way which was, which is and which will always be right here to get back to him. To get closer to him.

"Okay." Sarim whispered and stoop up from the couch.
"I'm going to offer namaz/prayer"

I got up happily whilst looking Hadi and Azlaan but both of them were sitting quitely.

"Hadi?" I called out to him.

"Hmm"

"Aren't you going to pray?"  I asked.

"Are you sure he will forgive us, like i dont remember when i last prayed." 

"He will Hadi He will, Why you guys are in despair,
Each day is an opportunity for us  to make our lifes better, He loves when we repent. The Holy prophet PBUH, The seal of the prophets said "

When both of them went to perform ablution i looked at Azlaan, hoping he would go too.
We both looked at eachother i was about to speak
but

"Dont even try." Hadi said while getting up from the couche and began to go towards his room.

"Why?" I followed him back.

"Ayla." He uttered my name very deeply.

"Dont force me please, I need sometime." He said
and i noticed teard welled up in his eyes.

"Are you okay?" I asked worriedly, Tears in his eyes  made my heart cracked. I dont know why.

"I'm fine, i'll see you later." He said while looking  here and there and then left.

Why he looks so hurt, Is there anything that is haunting him, or impeding him from prayers.
Whats wrong. I thought to myself.