Falling for my bully (Taylor Caniff fanfiction)

Chapter 15

     When I woke up this morning I had a text from Taylor. It said "Good morning baby, I just wanted to say hey" I replied "oh hey" I stood up and stretched my arms and sighed. I went to my closet to pick out and outfit for the day. I grabbed a red t-shirt and a pair of ombre jeans. I brushed my hair and put it into a high pony tail. I grabbed my book bag and walked out to Taylor's car. When I got out to go to class I saw a guy making out with a girl. He was pressing her against the school. I rolled my eyes. The boy looked familiar.

     "Nash?" I said. He looked up, his mouth hanging low.

     "Tanner, oh God. I swear it's not what it looks like?" He said.

     "Then what is it?" I asked. He opened his mouth like he was going to speak. "Exactly." I muttered. "I'm going to tell Katy. You guys have been saying for almost 3 years and you're gonna throw it all away. I don't care if you beat me up even more because I'm not gonna be a bad friend to one of my only friends." I shouted. I shook my head and walked away.

     "Hey..."

     "Nash Grier leave me the hell alone." I stormed off down the hall to my class room. At lunch, I didn't eat as usual. I just grabbed a water bottle and walked to the library. I sat in the corner on my phone listening to music with my ear buds. I sat in the library for and hour and ended up missing math. Oops! I walked to English class rubbing my eyes. I realized that Nash sat next to me. Great! The teacher told us that he'd never felt depression, and that we'd have the whole class to write about it and explain to him what it felt like. Here's what I wrote:

     Depression. Depression feels like you're drowning. It feels like no matter what you do, you can't save yourself. You can't reach the surface to breathe again. Like someone is pushing you down and watching you struggle. Once you're under for a while, you forget you're drowning. You breathe in and it feels like your head is filling with water. Your mind goes blank and you start to panic. You get the urge to let the water in and die, but you don't. You just push through it. I've felt this pain before, because of people in this class who I will not name, and because of my mother's death.

     I noticed that Taylor was staring at me as I read it aloud to the class. He gave me a slight smile. I smiled back because I think I love him. I mean I know it's only been a week but what can I say.

     I walked outside and got in my car.

     "Hey baby." I said smiling.

     "Hey!" He said kissing me on the lips.

     "You know you make me really happy." I said.

    

      "You make me even happier"

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Song for this chapter:

I gotta stay high all the time

Just to keep you off my mind

Woah, woah, woah woah

High all the time

To keep you off my mind

Woah, woah, woah woah