Beyond Her Petals

| Who I Am Hates Who I've Been |

Do you ever stop and wonder if you're truly living the life that was meant for you?

Because I know I can do better.

I feel as if time is mocking me, speeding past me and taking with it pieces of myself that I used to know. Pieces that contained my true laugh, my genuine smile.

Now I'm just kind of stuck. Stuck floating through time and space, trying to find my lost pieces to finish the gaps of my puzzle.

I yearn to be whole again because I don't like who I've been.

I want to be good.

I want to be enough without having to change who I am.

I want to be normal.

I want to be able to open up.

I want to figure out what it is I'm feeling and learn how to express it.

I want to be comfortable with who I am.

I want to take a picture and not feel insecure about every little thing about me.

I want to recognize the person I see in the mirror.

I want to move past my mistakes.

I want time to slow down.

I want to find my missing pieces.

I want to be whole again.