You never walk alone

Crushes

Crushes when I developed one on somebody my mind will say "oh no not this again whyyyyyyyyyy "and that's every time I can't stop it I wish I could stop it I just got over one it hurt a lot we never really dated but we did talk like it and stuff but we never where together I had fallen really hard for him and he knew he about and said he liked me to but then one day he was cold and then said he asked another girl out and it broke me down hard and I didn't recover for a long time just kinda over it now and me and him are close I now consider him like a brother but before that it hurt and his girlfriend was getting the wrong kind of picture of me and thought I wanted him back but I just wanted to work things out and be friends and now it's all cleared up and we are all ok but it still hurt me at first and I haven't like a guy since then but I am over him but do feel lonely and want a guy's touch but I don't know I still have feelings for him deep down but I drown them out and forget and most crushes I get emotionally attached to them and then I get crushed I want to have a guy to love right now but I don't want to have to be hurt again