Spectatrice de ma vie.

I wish

I wish I could be your friend ... But I guess I'm not good at that. Yesterday I realized that I did not have any friends. Let's say I have some pals and people I know but, idk, no one seems to be a real friend. A friend who would spends all his time with me, a friend who would talk with me for hours, a friend who would be there for all the joy and sadness of my life, a friend who could really love me just like I would love him or her.

You know, a real friend.

We would have misconceptions and people would say that our life is just a bunch of bullshit, but we wouldn't care. With this friend, I will say "fuck you" to the world and even to him / her.

But I do not have that kind of friend. I don't want to be alone anymore. But it's alright. 'Cause I have this person whom I really love and who is close to my heart. Even if we do not speak much and even if I'm afraid to annoy him. I know he's somewhere, looking for me. And I am very grateful. I wonder how this person might not trust her because I know he is fantastic. Maybe not the sweetest and happiest person I know, but he's really a great person. I would love him forever.

That's why I'm not sad. I know that someday I will meet good people and be friends with them. I'm just waiting for that. And I promise that I will smile until that day.

Sorry for my awful English. I guess there is a lot of mistakes. It's been a long time since I've written something in the rb soo how are you?

I'm tired so I'm gonna sleep. See y'a!