Love J

You're Killing Me Here

Class was boring as usual. Always boring. So I was just sitting in the corner of the back of class when my phone vibrated in my pocket. I never really liked texting in class but I was never noticed in class anyway so I supposed it wouldn't be that bad. I carefully slid my phone out of the pocket of my black skinny jeans and checked to see who was texting me. It could only be a few people, I didn't have many friends. It's what happens when you're too shy to even eat lunch in the cafeteria.

Christian.

Even the name made my heart flutter. It had been a year since I started talking to him and it was safe to say that it had been the best year I could remember. That masquerade ball was the best thing I had ever done. I opened my text, already smiling.

Is it just me or does school get more boring every day? - C

Nope, it's worse everyday. I'm surprised I've survived this long without falling asleep - J

Lucky, I passed that point a long time ago :P - C

If Miss Moro keeps this up then I'll be joining you - J

You take History? - C

Yeah, I thought it was a good idea. I was wrong. - J

I take history. I'd ask if you were in my class but I have biology now so... - C

Don't worry, I'd know if you were in my class :P - J

You're not fair. You know who I am but I have no idea who you are - C

Well everyone knows who you are. Duh. - J

Well can't argue with that :P - C

I love how modest you are haha - J

You just love me babe ;) - C

Keep dreamin doll - J

I always dream about you - C

Are you capable of having a conversation without flirting? - J

Not when it comes to you ;) - C

And there you go again. I think you have a problem - J

I do, you're right. I don't know who you are - C

Then you'll just have to keep dreaming ;) - J

Come on J! I just want to talk to you in person! - C

You've been asking me that for ages now. Give it up, I just can't :( - J

Please J! You're killing me here. It's not much, I just want to see you - C

Look Chris, you know how shy I am, I just can't - J

I'm going to find you J, I'm going to find out who you are - C

Good luck with that Chris but as boring as this class is I kinda want to pass so ttyl - J

Okay okay whatever. C ya J - C

Well not see but I get ya ;) bye Chris - Love J

With that, I put my phone back in my pocket and tried to keep the huge grin off my face. Damn, I had it bad but I couldn't help it. He was the best, there was no doubt about it. Funny and sweet and charming and caring and he remembered everything that I'd ever told him about me, even things I couldn't remember telling him. He remembered.

The rest of my classes passed by too slow. It felt like school should be over but I was only walking to the library for lunch. I always spent lunch in the library, It was easier for me. Less people, less attention and more places to avoid people. I had a couple of friends but none of them went to this school, annoying as that was. I was fine with it, keeping in the background, it was the easiest.

I was casually walking through the huge library to my favourite corner when I bumped into someone. Now bumping into someone in the library was something that rarely happened considering the lack of people who use the library and the size of the school. It was dauntingly huge. "S-s-sorry," I mumbled, not looking up to see who if was because I was too scared to. I know it sounded pathetic but I had chronic shyness.

"No don't worry about it, that was completely my fault." I swear I nearly died. Christian. Out of every person in the whole entire giant school, I had to bump into Christian. So keeping my head down and my eyes glued to the floor, I scurried away hoping that he still had no clue who I was. It was hard sometimes I guess. I kind of wanted to tell him who I was, I was in love with him. I couldn't deny it. But my fears were holding me back. I mean, there was no chance that he liked me, especially if he found out who I was.

"Damn damn damn damn damn," I muttered as I walked away and prayed that I wouldn't get a text incase he was still there. Of course, thanks to the universe, I felt the buzz in my pocket. I had to ignore it. What if he was still looking and noticed that I checked my phone after he text me? I didn't know if he had actually been teh one to message me but just in case. Always just in case. Sometimes I was afraid I was too cautious for my own good. Life would be easier if I could just not care but I did. I cared way too much.

When I had reached my spot, pulled out the book I had been reading and took my lunch from my bag, I finally checked my phone.

Go to the ball with me - C

The ball??? -J

Yeah, the masquerade ball next friday - C

I, uh, wasn't going to go - J

I was begging him to stop, internally. I didn't want to go. As much as I wanted to go and see him again and actually be able to speak with him in person, I didn't know if I could do it. He'd probably see me and forget why he ever started talking to me in the first place. I wasn't sure that I'd be able to speak to him, even with a mask.

Aww come on J! You have to go. It's our one-year-aversery - C

You seriously did not just say that - J

Yes I seriously did. Get over it :) - C

I'm not going to the ball with you - J

Why noottttt? - C

For the same reason you don't know my name - J

Does your name even start with J? - C

Yes, it does start with J - J

So your not going with me because you don't want me to know who you are? - C

Yes. When did you get smart? ;) - J

Ha ha ha. You're hilarious - C

Yeah that's why you love me ;) - J

Always babe ;) - C

Ha ha ha but welllllll, I guess I could go? - J

But just not with me right? - C

Yeah but I'll be there - J

Then I'll see you there - C

C ya Chris - Love J

What did I just do?