Love J

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"I love you J," Chris breathed, his voice on a whisper and his breath fanning my lips. His eyes were still closed and his nose was just barely brushing mine. It was a miracle my mind was even able to function enough to hear what he was saying with me being this close to him. "I love you J and it broke me to see you leave. These last three weeks have been torture. I haven't been able to see if you were okay and it was killing me. Something could have happened to you and I wouldn' have been able to cope if something did. I love you J and I don't even know your name. I love you J and this is the third time I've talked to you in person and known who you were. I love you J and I have for so long but I wanted to tell you in person and I was going to at the ball but you left and it broke me. I love you J."

I felt like my heart was going to explode. This was the point in the book where I had to put the book down and gather my thoughts and contain my feelings so they weren't physically hurting my chest. But I couldn't put my books down because Christian was right here confessing his love for me and I felt like I was going to die. I'd been in love with him for so long and I'd wanted to tell him that whole time but I wanted to tell him in person but then I blew any chances I had of that and tried to get over him but three weeks and I'd thought about him more than ever before. I had cut myself off from him for three weeks and I realised just how deep I loved him.

I was at about that point that I realised I hadn't said anything yet.

"I love you too." I had barely gotten the words out of my mouth when I felt Christian's against mine.

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When I had found enough brain power to actually be aware of what was going on, I pushed away from Christian and backed up until I was pressed up against the bok shelf. MY mind was spinning, I could feel the blood pumping in my ears and the thrtorous sting of pressure theat came with the thumping headache. I squeezed my eyes shut to try and regain some coherent thoughts other that focusing on the fluttery, panicking feeling in my chest and the way my vision had been blurring. My breathing was quick adn shallow and  I could feel the paninc increase as my body beame aware that it wasn't getting enough oxygem.

This was why I stayed away from people. It was too stressful and my body just could not handle stress.

I could hear a voice calling 'J' right before I slumoed to the floor and felt the pain subside.

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When my eyelids fluttered open, the first thing I saw was a bright light so my hand flew up to cover them. I sat up fast but felt the blood rushing to my head and had to put y two hands own to steady myself from the wave of dizziness. After taking a few slow, calming breaths, I opened my eyes for the second time.

"Long time no see Jessie," the nurse greeted with a warm smile. I smiled weakly in return and relaxed my tensed shoulders. I must have just fainted again. It hadn't happened in a long time but I wondered what had trigured this one.

"I had to pry your boyfriend out of the room. Ii'm pretty sure he's just pacing outside even after I sent him back to class," the nurse informed me wiht a light laugh evident in her voice.

"I don't have a boyfriend," I replied wiht my eyerows drawn together as I wondered what she was talking about. I didn't even have guy friends that would be worried enough to wait around for me and care.

"So you're saying Mr. Wells, the guy who caxrried you in here looking more panicked and stressed than you would have been, is not your boyfriend? Well my dear he could have fooled me."