Tyler's POV
I woke up that morning from my nightmare that had repeated as it always did now,as Josh layed on the other side of the bed. I slowly got up hoping I wouldnt wake him and slipped out into the hall and then into the kitchen.
I didnt know why I felt like I'd need it...but I walked to the kitchen counter where we kept all the random things from around the house and pulled out a heavy piece of metal from a small plastic container.
I then went to my room and got myself dressed in all black since it was going to be extremely cold out,slid the piece of metal into my pocket,and went to go get Josh.
Not long after Josh and I were out the door and I sat in the passenger seat of the car while Josh drove. As Josh was driving he began asking,what he thought were,sneaky questions to try to figure out what I wanted for my birthday. But I honestly didnt want a party or a celebration or any gifts...I just wanted the purple haired boy that sat beside me with the light shining off of his eyes as he took his pink bottom lip between his teeth,to be mine,and then I'd have it all.
Eventually we got to the school and had to go to our separate classes,and you'll never guess who my first class is with.
Brendon and his stupid friends.
Brendon's group didnt feel bad even in the slightest when they heard about my attempt and I'm sure they were hoping I'd die there in the hospital...although if I was being honest...that though had crossed my mind.
"Earth to Tyler"
Jenna waved her hand in front of my face as I stared in the direction of Brendon.
"O-oh I'm so-rry Jenna I di-dnt see you th-there..."
I apologised. Jenna then followed my gaze and shook her head at the boys throwing their school books back and fourth between each other as papers flew everywhere.
"Dont let them get to you Tyler,they act tough but trust me,they are the weak ones. But hey I'll see you in our next class yeah?"
She replied and I nodded in agreement. I walked as quietly as possible past the group of guys and into my seat in the back.
Once again Brendon somehow managed to see me and thought that it was a great day to bully me...again.
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The boys walked up to me as they gave me evil glances and smirks, speaking amongst themselves while they laughed and pointed at me.
Once they had gotten about half way to me Brendon held up a hand to hold them back so he could speak to me himself.
He took the seat in front of me and sat in it backwards to face me,
"Well hey there Tyler,I heard you have yourself an apartment with Josh now...but,I recall telling you to stay away...do you remember that at all? Or is your attention span too short."
He said acting as though he was innocent. But still I nodded implying that I did remember what he had said.
He turned to his friends to mouth something and laugh,and once he turned back to me he gripped the front of my shirt and pulled me up out of my seat,
"Then why the hell aren't you listening to me? You know I'll hurt him if I have to."
He snarled at me. I flinched as he pulled back his fist and then ,as expected, it connected with my jaw as a sharp spark of pain was sent through the area,then again but this time I tasted blood in my mouth. I dropped as he released the front of my shirt only to be picked up by the back of it as he repeatedly threw his knee into my abdomen.
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I lay there on the floor trying to pick myself up to get to the bathroom knowing that no one had seen anything with all of Brendon's friends blocking what was happening from everyone's line of sight.
Finally I gathered enough strength to get myself onto my feet and into the hall bathroom.
I sat in the corner unable to stop the tears from coming due to the pain that was shooting through me. His voice was replaying in my mind saying "You know I'll hurt him if I have to" and that was all I needed to push me into an anxiety attack. I stood up and began pacing back and fourth as I tried to get my breathing under control again but I had no luck.
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"Tyler trust me...this is what you need...just take out the blade...a few cuts wont kill you"
"No...n-ot you ag-again..."
I said to myself as blurry put the thought of the heavy metal blade into my mind.
"...no I-I made a pr-omise..."
I tried to fight blurry off but he knew I was weak.
I snatched the blade out of my pocket examining how the light was shining off of the metal.
I sat there trying to talk myself out of doing this as He pulled me down further into the darkness until it had consumed me.
I rolled up my sleeve as far as it could go and began retracing old white and pink lines that now lit up with crimson. Being sure to put these crimson lines as closely together as possible so I could completely cover my arm.
Around 10 minutes later I had a canvas full of these darkening crimson lines as the blood pooled and slithered it's way into the sink after the thick liquid dripped from my cold arm leaving rust colored splatters on the white sink.
My phone buzzed and I quickly picked it up to check it since I was on edge.
J: Hey are you okay? I heard something about a fight?? But I'm not sure of it's true or not.
I left him on read as I stared at the mesmerizing crimson/rust colored liquid.
A few seconds later he texted me again,
J: I've got a sick feeling,meet me in the bathroom so I can check up on you.
I automatically went into panic mode,rinsed out the sink, grabbed paper towels and ran into a stall with the blade in hand.
I whiped away the quickly thickening blood that was now almost gooey where it had pooled. I took an extra few paper towels and wrapped them around my arm as I pulled my sleeve quickly, and painfully, over my left forearm. Cleaned off the blade and slid it back into my pocket, flushing the towels with blood just as Josh walked in.
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Shit I had forgotten to clean up my face a bit from Brendon's beating...
I slowly opened the stall door keeping my head low.
"Ty,are you okay? Look at me please..."
I obeyed and slowly lifted my head.
Dried blood had run down the side of my mouth, I had a busted lip, and there was a darkening purple mark on my jaw.
Josh gasped,
"Oh God I'm so so sorry I wasnt there...I will make him pay for this..."
He said solemnly,quietly and angrily for what had happened to me as I nestled my head into his chest.
He hugged me and we left early that day.
Once we got home Josh took me by the hand and led me to the bathroom where he told me he was going to clean me up as he always did.
But he would see my cuts...
I had to come up with an excuse fast,so I decided to tell him that I could handle it this time. Josh looked at me worriedly before he nodded and hesitantly let me take care of myself.
I walked out the door and smelled something wonderful coming from the kitchen.
I tugged on the giant shirt of Josh's that I had borrowed until I got it on and hoped that I wouldnt be too embarrassed by the fact that I was wearing womens underwear and nothing else under the shirt. Although ,since it was so long, Josh might not notice.
I stepped into the kitchen with my wet hair spiked in all directions and my arms folded one over the other.
"Hey cutie,you okay?"
He asked referring to the bruises. I nodded even though I wasnt and then bit my lip before asking,
"That s-mells amazing...what've y-ou been cooking?"
Josh smiled and led me to the couch by my hand, sitting me down and covering me with a giant fluffy blanket before walking off into the kitchen again.
He came back with two bowls of spaghetti and two glasses of merlot wine, my favorite.
I grinned and my eyes got wider as he handed me the bowl and the glass.
He turned on the TV and picked out one of my favorite Netflix movies: Before We Go
Since Josh knew I had been having problems eating ,since I usually didnt and was very underweight, he didnt put too much in the bowl or glass and I ended up finishing it all somehow.
After he had finished as well I snuggled up beside him and he cuddled me but I fell asleep before the movie was over and he brought me to his bedroom so we could sleep after he finished cleaning up from dinner.
Josh really was something else,he was perfect to me in every way,and he was the one person I cared about most in this world.
