Falling Apart - One Direction fanfic

Chapter Four - She Can Stay With Me!

Jessica's P.O.V

I glanced over at the clock, 6.30 am. The car should be here any minute now. I took a deep breath and took a last look at my flat. 6 months without my dear flat...how am I going to survive!? I could deal with being away from my parents, my so called friends, London but not my flat. It's the one thing in my shitty life that I'm proud of. And now I'm replacing it with 6 months in small hotel rooms. I must be out of my mind. The sound of my phone woke me up from my thoughts. The car's here. Just a few seconds later someone knocked on my door. I sighed, this is it then. With the help of the driver I put all of my luggage in the car and then we set off to the airport. I tried so hard to not think about them. Their eyes, their perfect smiles, their incredible hair, their scent, their...no, keep it together Jess. Thank god I haven't spent any time with them since that awful day with fittings. But I just couldn't get that day out of my mind and that moment. But most of all I couldn't stop thinking about Harry Styles, which made me furious. It made me hate him and hate myself. He's just another Jeremy and I'm falling into old habits again. Yes, I definitley hate him. I can't believe I allowed him to take control of me like that the other day, I've promised myself to be strong and not let anyone do that to me and the first thing I do when I'm alone with him is to almost kiss him. Right there in that car I decided to avoid Harry as much as possible, talk to him as little as I could and most importantly, never ever spend any time with him alone. Oh, and did I mention that he lied to everyone and told them we kissed? Caroline told me, and he didn't just brag about a kiss, he'd told them all that I'd snogged his face off. Yeah, that made me hate him even more. That cocky wanker, who does he think he is!? I'm going to confront him about that later, put him on the spot and demand answers. I'm also going to make sure that he doesn't ever try to flirt with me again. He's just like all the other dicks in the world. He knows how to play his cards and that's why he always succeeds with making women falling in love with him. But I know him, I know his type and how he's going to play his cards and I won't let him fool me even though he almost got me the other day. I've been a part of this game before, I know how it begins, how it evelops, how I can't ever win, how it'll end in pain. I know now for sure that he's just like everyone else, I'd hoped that he was different. Stupid, huh? I know, deep inside I knew but I was still hoping to be wrong. 

"Hey Jess, you're in time! Thank god." Caroline sighed in relief and hugged me. She seemed really stressed. 

"Where is everyone?" I looked around the airport, I didn't see anyone from the crew. Not even the big superstars...just hundreds of their screaming fans. 

"The boys will be here in a few minutes...they're late like usual." She rolled her eyes. "Some of the others are boarding the plane and some aren't here yet. But we have to go...now." She hooked her arm in mine and pulled me along with her, leaving our luggage for some big security guards to take care of. I was starting to like this life...well only a little bit. We checked in, went through the security check and finally boarded the plane. L.A. I can't even begin to describe how excited I am. First stop, America, then Canada, then Mexico, then Argentina, then Brazil, then the rest of the world. Befor boarding the plane I glanced over one last time at Heathrow airport. 

'Well, I guess this is goodbye then London. I'll miss you.' 

"Jess, are you coming?" Caroline gave me a confused look and I realised that I was holding up the line. I quickly handed my ticket and passport to the flight attendant in front of me. 

'Seat 3G.' 

I'd been in airplanes before but never in a plane this size. It didn't even look like a plane, especially not the first class seats where my seat apparently was. Caroline was a couple of rows behind me on the other side but it didn't bother me, I'd planned to sleep the whole way anyway so I was praying that I wouldn't get to sit next to a big talker.