inner demond

chapter 31

ANGELS POV

Everything was blurry, my thought we empty and my soul was almost clear... I recognized the place I was lying in a hospital bed, someone was beside me but I could care who as I knew somewhere the demons were some where hiding in the shadows looking for the right time to come in... my arm was in so much pain I was no longer in my hoddie and there was a huge cut down my arm ...

Angel: fuck my life why didn't I die ?

I turned my body around to see Colby beside my bed he was a sleep but I just didn't understand how or why he was here and why I was still her I guess I didn't try hard enough... I went to reach out for Colby's hand but pulled mine back quickly.

Angel: why is he here why didn't I die and where did the voices go ?

The door opened and a few people walked into my room it was two boys and one girl. The walked closer to me and I soon relisted who they were it was Collins Devan and Chelsea they were smiling at me but I just couldn't smile back...

Chelsea: I'm glad you are okay 

I shrugged my shoulders and hid my head under the cover

Devan: I should have followed you into the woods instead of leaving you to go alone.....

Collins: how's the arm?

I couldn't get myself to speak to them so I just showed them my arm, I heard them all gasp so I pulled it back under the cover...

Colby: oh hey guys didn't relies you were all here...

Chelsea: I had to see if she was okay 

Colby: she was out cold last night so I guess she woke before me 

I just nodded under the cover....

Angel: I want you all to leave 

Devan: we are not going any where till we know you are okay 

Angel: LEAVE NOW I DONT WANT YOU HERE I WANT TO DIE....

the room fell in silence...

Colby: come on lets go 

Chelsea: im not leaving she is my sister

Colby: its fine come on lets go ....

The door opened the closed so I guess they had all left so I pulled of the cover and there standing at the end of my bed was Colby he looked sad but I couldn't get why....

Colby: we need to talk 

Angel: no I need you to leave I need to leave

Colby: we need you here in this world why are you trying to take your self out ?

Angel: because I am not meant to be here 

Colby just looked at me with sad eyes but I knew what I was saying was true

Colby: I want to help you 

Angel: you cant 

Colby: I WANT TO HELP YOU SO LET ME 

Angel: I DONT NEED YOUR HELP UNLESS YOU ARE GOING TO HELP KILL ME I DONT NEED YOU I WAS BORN IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME AND NO ONE WANTS ME HERE ANYWAYS NOW LEAVE ME ALONE 

Colby: fine I will go but I am here if you need me...

I ignore what he said and he walked out of the room, I watched him as he walked away from my room... I sat up in my bed and looked down at my arm it wasn't in to much pain now but it was now a huge scare down my arm full with stiches. 

Angel: why did he save me ....? why didn't this work I don't want to be in this world anymore I don't belong here so why couldn't he let me die...?

I felt a few tears run down my face but I quickly wiped them away as someone was knocking on my door...

Angel: who is it?

Daisy: only me can I come in ?

Angel: sure

Daisy: are you okay .... well its a supied question you are not okay 

I sighed at her question as I would of been okay if Colby left me there

Angel: I'm okay just want to be alone that's all 

Daisy: well I will go but just wake sure you are okay....

she walked out of the room and lied back in the bed... everything was quite for a long time until my phone vibrated....

CALL

Angel: hello?

Devan: Hey do you mind if I come over?

Angel: hmm I don't know 

Devan: please I just want to see you 

Angel: fine.... just.... don't tell anyone come alone

Devan: okay 

he ended the call and I closed my eyes trying to get to sleep....

FEW HOURS LATER

I was woken up by a slight knock on the door Devan walked in like he had a big secret to hide he sat right be my side and grabbed hold of my arm he stared at the cut and didn't say anything so I pulled my arm back and sat up...

Angel: is everything okay ?

Devan: I know how you are felling

Angel: so you know what it is like to cut everyday and not want to be alive anymore because you feel you annoy everyone and....

Devan: and feel like you are nothing like a waste of space.... yes I know what that is like

I couldn't find any words to say I never knew he felt the same way I always thought he was so happy but I was wrong....

Devan: as I said I know how you feel 

the room fell in silence and Devan just looked me in the eyes he grabbed my hand and lifted up his sleeve reviling he had done the same before he had the same cut in the same way huge and from his wrist all the way down his vain... 

Angel: oh im sorry I never noticed this before

Devan: no one notices that's why its a good thing remember I told you I hd to go away for a few days and never told you why .... well that was because I was in hospital for a few days after trying to kill myself.

I pulled him towards me and hugged him tight I felt my shoulder become wet and my face become wet as we both were crying 

Angel: lets make a deal 

Devan: okay im listering 

Angel: when ever we feel like crap we come right to each other either text or ring or just come around I don't care if it is 2 in the morning come round to chat