Living the Dream

I Left my Favorite Hoodie

(Play Come Say Hello by Superhumanoids)

I woke up and it was dark.

Funny...

Jc was still sleeping so I tried to snuggle up to him but...

IT WAS SO HOT.

I was sweating like crazy and my mouth was dry so. I swung my legs over the side of the bed and tried to get up. I stood up and tried to walk to the bathroom to get a drink but it was just so hot. I felt my head and I was burning up. I kept walking and changed direction mid-step to go to the kitchen. I felt so dizzy...

I started down the stairs but my knees buckled. I don't understand what is happening.

"What's happening to me..." I whispered.

I didn't want to wake anyone.

I tried to crawl down the stairs but when I got to the bottom I was so tired.

"I need water." I said.

I tried to stand up but fell again.

And I just laid on the floor.

I don't remember anything much after that... Except a lot of shouting and loud noise... Then nothing.

•••••

I woke up what seemed like a couple hours later.

"Daiz?" Said Jc.

"Where are we?" I asked.

"The hospital." He said.

"Why." I asked.

"You passed out at the bottom of the stairs. We tried to wake you up but you wouldn't budge and I got so scared I was freaking out and I called the ambulance." He said.

His poor face was so red and puffy from crying.

"I'm sorry." I said.

"It wasn't your fault." He said.

"How long was I out?" I asked.

"Five days. But I was so scared... It seemed like forever..." He trailed off.

"I'm so sorry." I mumbled.

"I said it wasn't your fault. It was my fault. I should've been there to save you." He said, getting mad at himself.

"Jc you can't always be with me." I said.

A long silence went on after that.

"Did you use while I was out, Jc?" I asked.

No answer.

"Jc. Did you use?" I said sternly.

"No." He said.

"Are you lying?" I asked.

"No." He said.

"I was with you the entire time." He said.

"I've only known you for two days..." I mumbled under my breath.

"Seven." He said.

"What?" I asked.

"You've known me for seven days. A week."

"Oh my god. I was only supposed to be here a week. What about tour?" I said.

"L told the fans what happened and that you wouldn't be performing anymore." He said.

"Ever?" I asked.

"No." He whispered.

"No." I said, tears brimming my eyes.

"No. No, no, no." I said as I let the tears fall.