99 Days

Day 22 Monday

Its been a week. So far its been good. Ethan and I have been hanging out a bit more. I've beaten him in all of his games. Over the weekend he had invited some of his other friends to join us in gaming. They were impressed. One: because I am a girl. And two: because I didn't suck at video games. I thought that this week was going to be good for me. But as usual whenever things start going well for me something gets fucked up, and I have to pay for it.

After school Ethan came over. When we got to my house I noticed dad's truck in the driveway. He almost never comes over. Not unless he has something important to talk about with mom. Which is almost never.

I was worried but I tried not to show it. I walked in and heard mom yelling. I told Ethan just to go straight upstairs and that I would be up there in a moment.

"Hey guys, what's going on?" I asked as I walked into the living room.

"Nothing, now please we're trying to have an adult conversation." mom said. They've been saying that all of my life. They never told me anything that was going on between them. I would always have to spy and listen to their conversations, but they never really made any sense.

"Mom I am almost 18, which means I am almost an adult. I think I should know what goes on in my family. You guys have been keeping things from me my entire life. I hate it." I said back. They said nothing. Which only fueled my anger more. After a few moments of silence I said, "So?" and they remained silent. I was pissed. I turned around and marched upstairs. I did not care what it was they were fighting about, I only cared because they're keeping it from me. I am old enough to know that mom cheated on dad and that is why they are divorced. I am old enough to know that my dad still loves her, but doesn't trust her. I am old enough to know that because he still loves her he won't move on. He hasn't dated anyone while my mother on the other hand sees more men than I care to count. I am old enough to know what's going on. I should know. I am their daughter.

I am in tears by the time I reach my room. Ethan pulls me into a hug. I didn't want to be here. Not with my parents. I want to leave. I pull away from him and lead him to the front door. I am not staying here tonight.