Words from my Heart

MY BEST FRIEND

My Best Friend

Everybody wants someone to talk to, to tell our deepest secrets we can’t tell to our parents, to laugh with when we’re happy, to get kilig with when we’re in love, to cry on when we’re hurt and that someone is the one we call BEST FRIEND.

Since I was a child, I really wanted someone I can call best friend… but I haven’t given one.

I may have so many friends but no one has been my best friend.

Then, years passed…

First week of my Junior High School year…

And there we have a new classmate.

He’s nice, I guess, by the way he looks.

Break time then, when he came up to me and say, “Ok lang ba sumama sa inyo?”

I was with my girl classmates that time… and he sat right next to me.

I don’t know how or why and when but the same guy I was talking about was the one that became my best friend.

It just happened that one day we call each other “bes”.

Isn’t it nice?

He never knew how much I’m thankful I finally found someone to call MY BEST FRIEND.

But it seems, it’s just me acting real best friends.

Why did I say so?

Because I’m not the only one he calls best friend. Isn’t it unfair? I thought when you use the word “best” it means it is only one, not two, not three or any number but one.

By that I feel so… ugghh.. I can’t explain it. It just hurts.

Then one day, in our values class, when I shared my thoughts and my feelings. I told everyone that I wanna change myself because I don’t want to be the same, always been downed.

But he told me, “Why would you change, if I chose you to be my best friend as the same as you are now?” he said that in a sad tone… I can feel his sincerity. I can even see the tears want to fall but he hid those. After all he’s a guy.

And then, we got back as best friends.

Another year passed and we’re in our Senior High School year…

He courted a lot of girls. And every time he was hurt, I want to confront those girls made him sad.

But I can’t because I don’t want him to feel that I’m overreacting being his best friend. I just tend to be there listening and watching as he made his own decisions.

But what I wanna do is to scold at him and tell him to stop all of his carelessness about loving someone… I want to be the “best” best friend ever. But he never allowed me to.

Until we graduated, we seldom communicate and what’s worst he seems to forget about me. And then, one time, when I was hurt, I want to talk to him… but he never replied. That time I felt so alone.

Then, we saw each other again accidentally. We talk but not that much. How I missed those times we used to be together. He telling me stories, pains, heartaches… best friend things…

But he changed. The peer felt that.

Then, one day… I received a text message from him… seeking for my advice… then I felt we’re connected again but after that day he’s gone again. MY BEST FRIEND is gone again.

I never imagine that he will change just like that.

Last day, I send him a message saying…

“You might forget about me; but I’ll never forget about you. You might not treat me as your best friend anymore; but still I’ll treat you as one. You might disregard this message; but still I send you this.

Miss you BEST :/ still remember me?”

And I got no reply.

He was MY BEST FRIEND then and still he is.

Though he forgets about me still I’ll be here remembering him.