why does my mind continue to go back to the thought of you? as if you would come back, it could solve my problems, no. i cant convince myself that isn't true though! why? i understand you were a large part of my life but that part is gone. almost for a year now. it feels like it has been centuries if i'm being honest. i forgave you in my brain thinking that could help set things straight and let you go. it didn't help, which is quite obvious. i want to drop it, maybe burning our old photos and notes would help. 10 years. it was almost 10 years of my life knowing everything about you, you know everything about me. we are strangers with each others secrets. how you get large amounts of energy at random times and end up rearranging your room. not much of a secret actually. the way you can move one eyebrow at a time, you love showing people. the way you sing, only when you were around me. the way you can obsess over things when they're new. your love for hallmark movies. the way you bottle up all of your feelings, you don't usually let people see you cry. the way you secretly hate yourself, you wish you were different, but no. you know your music taste is old shitty music, but you embrace it. i don't want to admit i miss it so FUCK YOU.
YOU ARE READING
the way i see it
Randomshort passages of how i feel, the way others feel, the way anyone could feel. feelings
