Pineapple

Chapter Thirteen

So something just wouldn't let me go to sleep.

Even in the comfort of Lee's arms I did not feel at ease.

My mind kept wondering back to the whole mother situation, and I can't believe I've been lied to for so long.

I mean I can believe it since Savanah is my mom's sister they should look alike and thus we also look alike.

This all just feels like a heavy load on my shoulders and I just want someone to help me carry it. But that would be selfish of me, if Savanah has taught me something valuable, it's that no matter how bad it is in the family never tell an outsider because it's none of their business.

I don't even like those shows that play on TV where people call 'the experts' for an intervention or something like that.

I slowly and carefully untangle myself from Lee's body, and I make myself down to the living room.

Whenever I can't sleep I normally go to the closest gas station to by some donuts.

I feel like people are fake and donuts are real.

I love donuts.

I search for my car keys which I collected with my car  last night after dinner. Thankfully my parents weren't home.

I make sure to take one of the apartment keys with me and I make my way to the basement garage.

I hop in the car and I drive to the closest gas station I can find and their donuts do look promising.

I buy 6 chocolate donuts and I start my journey back home.

It's funny how it always used to be Lee's apartment and now I call it home.

And it's true I feel more at home with Lee in his apartment then I ever did with my family at our mansion.

The whole trip, to and fro, only took me 30 minutes.

As soon as I open the door to the apartment I see Lee holding his phone to his ear running a hand through his hair.

I see my phone which I put on silent when I sleep blinking in the pockets of my hoodie.

And I realize that Lee was actually trying to call me.

He looks up and meets my apologetic eyes with his angry shit storm eyes.

"where were you?" he asks with a very serious tone.

"I went to buy donuts." I say rather quietly scared of the Lee standing in front of me.

"okay." he says and he walks back upstairs to his bedroom I guess.

"fuck." I say while sighing into my donut free hand.

"well let me enjoy my donuts and I'll deal with the rest tomorrow morning." I say while hopping on the couch.

After about ten minutes I have consumes 4 donuts.

That's fast I know but they are actually not that big, almost the size of my fist.

I put the rest in the fridge and I walk over the his bedroom.

I slide in the spot next to him and I wrap my arms around his torso and my body is flushed to his.

His back is actually facing towards me and I can feel how tense he actually is.

"I'm sorry for leaving like that, next time I'll tell you." I say and I kiss his shoulder blade.

Lee doesn't say anything and I know that he is not asleep yet and i guess I'm going to get the silent treatment for the rest of the night.

I feel so bad and selfish right now. I left during the night and who knows what could've happened to me. Lee being the good person that he is would've blamed himself if anything bad happened to me. God bless his soul.

It's just that my life is just so fucked up and all and I hate that even though I still haven't unloaded my shit on him, I'm still stressing him out.

I really should've ended it that day.

I traitorous tear leaves my eye and I quickly wipe it, but it's too late because it already landed on Lee's shoulder.

Lee stirs and turns around to face me as soon as he feels the droplet.

He wraps his muscular, yet gentle arms around me and tucks my head into hist ard yet soft chest. I inhale his scent and I instantly feel a whole lot better.

I don't know what I did to deserve a person like Lee but I don't want to question fate.

He's just amazing in every way possible. He's kind, he's gentle, he's protective and he buys mcdonalds, how many girls can say their boyfriends buy them a big Mac and coke instead od diet coke? Not many.

"I'm so sorry, Lee,  I won't do that I again I promise." I say with a lump on my throat and my voice slightly cracking at the end of the sentence.

"hey, babe don't beat yourself up about it." he says pulling me away from him to gaze into my eyes. Trying to comfort my saddened and fearful eyes with his comforting ones.

He's like paradise after sailing aimlessly in the sea.

He's like a donut in the  middle of the night when I can't sleep.

Funny how a donuts caused this situation.

Suddenly more traitorous tears emerge and I silently sib into Lee's chest. Lee pulls me closer of course till there is no space between us..

Lee may break up with me tomorrow but right now because of how clingy and emotional I am but all I need is for him to comfort me.

Who am I kidding, I want Lee to still be with me even tomorrow night.

"please don't leave me Lee." I say sounding desperate to make sure that he's still here and never leaving men, atleast until I'm strong enough.

"I'm scared you're going to leave me sunshine." he says in a serious but vulnerable tone.

I think I might be falling in love with Lee.

Lee's POV

I don't want to tell her now because I'm scared but I'm absolutely with no doubt in my mind madly I love with Jess.

She's like the coffee that I drink in the morning. She's my sunrise and sunset.

We only just started dating but I can't imagine life without her already.

I've always had a crush on her and I've always been in love with her.

That's why I've never had a girlfriend before it was because I kept comparing every girl to her.

None of them ever compared to my Pineapple.

She's amazing, she's just everything.

From her smile to her giggle, her walk and that cute ass of hers  just drives me crazy.

"Lee I couldn't sleep and I normally buy donuts even in the middle of the night, and I know it-" before she can carry on trying to make herself feel bad I place my index finger on her lips to silence her.

"don't worry sweetheart we'll talk about it tomorrow morning." I say and place a lingering kiss on her forehead and bring her in for a tight embrace. Keeping her in my arms for the rest of the night.

After I'm sure she is asleep I whisper the three words I've been dying to say.

" I love you."

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