Is This Love? (CAMREN)

Chapter 14

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Camila POV

It's been 2 weeks ever since Lauren broke my heart. It's been 2 weeks ever since I last kissed her. It's been 2 weeks ever since I had talked to her.

We just steal glances and sometimes we talk to each other but only when it's necessary. The girls have noticed the awkward tension between me and lauren, specially Dinah.

It's been hard not talking to lauren. But that's how she wanted it to. She's too scared of what people are gonna think rather than whatever she feels for me. I've always known lauren is always confident with herself, so i really don't get why is she so scared about all this. I'm definitely very confused, I've never felt this way for anyone before,specially a girl. She just makes my heart beat faster and she makes my life seem better.

No one will ever replace that feeling. But it's time to move on, I'm tired of being the one that always gets hurt. I tried to start something with her last time, but she rejected me. It was a "mistake" for her.

My hearts been aching in pain ever since she told me that it was wrong when we kissed. How can she affect me this much. Why do I have to feel this? Why can't I just feel this for Austin or for someone else.

"Mila, we need to talk in private" I heard Dinah said as she interrupted my thoughts

"Oki dokey Dinah Jane , let's go talk. " I tried to sound happy and jokey.

She gaved me a smile

We started walking out the bus as I saw lauren , ally and mani outside the bus talking with each other. We'll basically ally and mani were the ones talking

I couldn't stop staring at lauren. Than I saw her turn around and for a quick second our eyes met. She looked at me than headed inside the bus.

I looked away and pulled my hair behind my ear.

"Okay Mila, I've noticed how distant you and Lauren have been. you've been a lot quieter than usual and we'll it's just not the same. all of us have noticed. What happened?" she asked with a serious expression

"Nothing. that's just how we are now." I said looking at the ground and than at her eyes

"Nope, something happened, you girls were okay and than all of the sudden that day we went to the beach... I saw you when you got back inside the hotel...you where crying. I never asked because I thought you had just a little argument in y'all were gonna get over it the next day, but it's been two weeks. y'all don't even talk to eachother. What happened?" she said looking me in the eyes

I couldn't just tell her that I kissed lauren it would have been weird.
"Dinah nothing happenedy it's just we had an argument but that's whatever. Just get used to it . " I said.

"Okay Mila I'll wait for you to tell when the truth when you're ready" that's all she said and left and went and talk with ally and mani.

I pulled out my phone and put in my headphones than headed toward the bus.

I went to my bunk bed and saw lauren in hers. Why did she had to be beside mine. I laid down and got out my book and turn off my music.

As I started reading I heard lauren move. I glance to see what she was doing but she was already staring at me. We started at each other's eyes for about twenty seconds

I finally broke the eye contact and started to read

"Hey..." lauren said I rolled my eyes and bit my lips . I was mad at her , mad because she broke my heart, mad because I realize that she so important to me and I really miss her.

"Hi" I said and went back to my book

"So what you reading" Lauren asked

"A book." I simply said

"We'll that's obvious, I mean ...forget it. umm..." she said

"Lauren I think you are right we should just pretend like nothing ever happened and just keep ignoring each other's presence." I simply said with my eyes still in the book

"I never said to ignore each other nor I never intended for us to be like this. I love you Camz you're my best friend and I just..." she said but was rudely interrupted by me

"You know what lauren it's okay. whatever I'm tired of us having a argument and than you just say sorry and you think I'm always gonna be forgiving you. leave it like that . leave me alone " I said

I quickly glanced at her . She had a frown on her face. she tried...but I'm tired of always playing this little game. it really hurts me every time we fight.

"Camila...i know what I said that day was ...messed up,but i didn't mean it . I'm just scared. I've never felt this way before. I'm still learning who I am. I'm scared of what my parents are gonna think or the world I'm just..." lauren said

"Okay you don't have to apologize or anything I'm sorta used to this little game of ours. now that you're done I'm going back to reading" I said and looked back at my book

I'm tired of always letting her get to me . We always play this little games, but no more.

"Camila.." lauren said but was interrupted as the girls came in the bus

"Hey Mila...theres a pizza place lets all go there ." Dinah said excited

"Thanks D but I really don't feel like going out tonight. I'm just gonna read my book" I said smiling

"What about u lauren?" Dinah asked lauren

"Umm nah I'm gonna take a nap I'm exhausted."

"Okay girls. y'all want me to bring you some pizza here?" Dinah asked

"Yea sure." we both said

The girls sat at the tiny sofa we had

"Camila..." lauren started

"I'm reading. talk to me later." I said rudely while I closed my bunks curtain. I heard her sigh I started reading and slowly fell asleep.

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I'll try to update soon. I know it's kinda short but we'll...yup.

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