Late night thoughts

Spinning and spinning

This isn't the usual but it kind of rhymes-ish so why not.

Wrote: 11/14/18 by Alayna Stevens
I am so so confused and hurt and angry and in pain. My life is just spinning and spinning away I offer myself to you for help and to be there and you deny me the right to care, you deny me the right to be there. I am hurting by the simple fact that you and I aren't trying that it's only me who is trying at this rate. If you have someone else tell me that you don't want me around. Yet, when you say things like I am the love of your life and you lost me because you pushed me away when I am desperately trying to save what is left despite what everyone is saying. I am trying so so hard I am running myself thin I just don't know what to do anymore. I love you with my very heart and soul but yet here I am, feeling my heart growing cold. I don't want to withdrawal I want to help but I can't keep coming back and then waiting to fall. I just don't know what to do anymore because I love you so. I want to be with you I want us to be strong again. Holding onto you is so hard, the rope that I am desperately holding onto is hurting, leaving my hands burned and broken.