Will there be an up side? (OHSHC)

Part 8 1/2

HARUHI'S POV (continued)

As I sat in my room thinking about what May said.

'The person who what? Didn't even notice I wasn't there until Haruhi shouted to go help me. I get it I'm not a pretty little girl. I thought we all were friends? Guess I was wrong. I'm mad at myself for being so careless! I tried to help Haru but ended up failing again.'

And that's just the things that stuck out. "I'm such a bad friend, I let her move me. I shouldn't have tried to fight, I'm such an idiot!" I reprimanded myself aloud.

Suddenly a knock at the door took my attention.

Dinner time...

MAY'S POV

As Haru walked in the twins were Basically on top of her, about her little night gown.

Meanwhile here I sit in a big dark blue shirt, and long blue pj pants. 'I'm not cute.' I thought to myself.

"These are all the crabs we got today Haru-Chan!" Honey said trying to lighten the mood.

'Whatever, I'm used to the silence.' I shrugged and started eating along with everyone.

Haru was eating a lot, and I mean a lot. 'That pile of crab is bigger than my future.' I pondered, then cracked an invisible smile.

"Don't you think you've had enough?" Tamaki said to Haruhi.

"Hey buddy don't ever tell a girl she's eating too much that's a one way ticket to the couch." I blurted out.

He didn't say anything else, he jut liked at me with an unreadable expression. Trying to tell me something without knowing what he wants to say.

I slowly realized that everyone was starring at me, and I did not like it one bit. I didn't feel like being nice to the guys I'm still a little mad, so instead I just scoffed and left the table.

When I got back to my room I took off the binding along my chest. 'Oh goodness it feels so much better to breathe!' I put on a night bra, (sorry if that's weird for you but it's a real thing so suck it up buttercup) and fixed my hair into a bun on tippy top of my head. I enjoyed watching a few episodes of some shows I like, since I finished bones, I moved on to the office.

Unexpectedly, I heard a bang. I looked out the window, dark clouds painted the sky the rolling thunder audible from inside the mansion we were in.

'I make sure Haru's okay!'

I started making my way out of my room, not caring that I am empty handed.

I had made it halfway to Haru's room when suddenly all the lights went out, and I heard a bone chilling crash of thunder.

'Oh my gosh no! It triggered me!'

(Warning for sensitivity I'm about to mention panic attacks so if you are not very stable I'd skip to the next bold chunk)

My eyes felt as if they were smashing into the sides of my skull, I couldn't focus on anything.

Everything around me was pitch black my eyes hadn't adjusted even a little, I sank to the floor. Leaned on a wall pulling my legs to my chest in fear I might lose them.

I wanted to close my eyes, i needed to pretend this wasn't happening. But I couldn't, my ears were ringing like church bells singing. My heart was racing, as if it was inches away from the finish line.

I couldn't breathe normally, my throat was in a knot that felt like it would never come loose. My body was shaking I was freezing cold, but I was sweating like a beast. My vision was blurring more and more by the seconds, I couldn't see and it was becoming even darker.