fuck i fell in love. [garrett watts x reader]

the fall hurts but you heal bb

enjoy! :)
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y/n pov

"liar."

I wasn't mentally ready to actually get out of my house and do things so instead i stayed inside with Morgan and we watched Apple TV. It wasn't as fun as id hoped but it was better than going outside and having a mental breakdown because something reminded me of him. "Hey morgan, do you ever feel like nothing ever gets better? Like one moment you're happy and then something happens and you feel like you can't breath?" I ask as i blankly stare at the tv. "Not particularly, do you?" she replied. i silently nodded. she sighed, "look y/n, i know things are tough but things do get better. i remember when i was having my crisis a few years ago and you were there, you told me to not give up, you gave me hope. Now im here to do the same. Do not let this beat you to the ground and ruin you. Garrett is an ass at some points but he cares. People do care. I promise."

And here comes the waterworks again. i couldn't help but feel empty even when all of this emotion was spilling out. it was like everything turned black and a deafening scream wouldn't stop going through my head, telling me that i am nothing and that he never loved me. But that was just me. Most likely, Garrett was hanging out with ryland and shane, having a jolly good time. Life is cruel, isn't it?

Morgan looked at my helpless figure, thinking of something to do. She decided to call Shane for help. "I'll be right back okay y/n?" I ignored her and let her leave.

Morgan's pov

I stepped out of the room and dialed shames number. Once he picked up, i immediately started talking. "Is Garrett at your house?" "What? No, he's not. Why?" "He broke y/n. He kissed her last night because they decided to have a sleepover and then earlier this morning, he said it meant nothing and that he doesn't and never will feel that way about her. She won't stop crying and she's in real pain and i don't know what to do." Shane was shocked at my words. "That dumbass, keep y/n company and make sure she doesn't do anything stupid okay? I'll find Garrett and talk some sense into him." "Thank you so much, i want her to be okay and i know Garrett does love her and I told her but she doesn't believe me. I'll talk to you later, thank you again shane." He said bye and hung up. I walked back into the room, y/n still in tears. Thankfully she didn't do anything stupid.

y/n pov

Everything was tumbling down so fast and it scared me. I felt so alone even though i knew damn well that i had people by my side. It sucks that in relationships, the only person who can help, is the person who just broke your heart. Morgan came back into the room and frowned. She came to sit by me and i let her, i was too tired to do anything else other than cry. "Hey look at me okay?" I did as told and looked at her. "You are smart, and beautiful and kind and everything anyone could hope for and the fact that Garrett feels like he needs to lie about his feelings makes him a coward and cowards miss out on a lot of stuff in life. So please stop crying, you can sleep in you need to, just try not to think about him. It will make it worse." Morgan explained. My head was in so much pain and i was tired to i agreed with her and laid down to rest. It'll do me good to rest anyways.

Garretts pov

God you fucking idiot! You just lost your chance with your soulmate most likely because you're too afraid of the internet! You never deserved her anyways if this is the shit she would have to deal with! Ugh, just fuck off already!

My mind wouldn't stop, it couldn't stop. I needed to make the voices stop somehow but i didnt know. So I screamed, i screamed at the top of my lounges to make myself understand that i did this. Not her, me. Suddenly i got a call from shane, i had a feeling he knew what was going on so i didn't pick up. I just wanted y/n. Maybe she was still at her house, but would she want to see after what i did? Probably not. I could maybe still call though.

I dialed y/n's number and called. Once no one picked up, i called again. By the third time i got worried and just by my anxiety, i ran from the park area i was at to the love of my life's house. I didn't care if i was out of shape. I needed to know that she was okay. Once i ran there, i saw that her car was still there thankfully. I ran to the door and knocked several times, Morgan opened it and thought it was Shane apparently. "Oh shit, garrett! You shouldn't be here! Y/n can not deal with seeing you rightnow, you've already hurt her enough." Morgan explained. "Morgan i know but i need to see her, i screwed up and i don't want to lose her. I need her more than anything." Morgan stared at me with sad eyes. "Go on, she's in her room. Be gentle though." Morgan replied.

I thanked her and headed to y/n's room quickly. When I opened it up she was curled up, asleep. Maybe that was why she didn't call back. I sighed and plopped on the bed beside her. I layer down and put my arm around her waist just like i had done the previous night. I closed my eyes and let my head rest. Soon my resting just turned into me falling asleep.

y/n pov

I slowly opened my eyes from my much needed nap to feel an arm around my waist and the presence of someone else. I turned around and saw garrett. My heart rate went fucking insane and tears were starting to come down my face again, but happy ones. I was happy that he came back. Garretts eyes opened slightly and he groaned. "Ugh, hey y/n, sorry about earlier, i was an ass. I love you a lot and don't give a shit about what the internet thinks. I would say all of that better but im still tired and needed to get it out now." Garrett said. My smile went wide and i couldn't help but kiss him. "God, you idiot, you had me so worried. I love you more than words can explain Garrett watts. I have for a long time." I replied. Garrett was wide awake now and smiled softly, kissing me again. First it was just soft kisses but then it collided into more passionate kisses and neck kisses. Before anything could get too serious though, i ended it by saying that Morgan might still be here and he understood so he got off.

"Yknow y/n, i really am sorry for being an asshole. I was afraid to love you because i thought maybe the internet wouldn't like it or people would do something to you. I didn't want anything bad to happen so i avoided my feelings for a while until they slipped out so many times and i hurt you. I was so afraid of there hurting you that i never stopped to realise that i may hurt you. I love you more than anything and honestly im damn well sure that you are my soulmate. That kiss we had, i did feel something. I felt the biggest amount of sparks and i loved it. I promise to protect you from anyone and/or anything. Not a single thing is going to hurt you." Garrett sweetly explained. My eyes were tearing up and i smiled the bigest smile i had ever smiled in my life.

"i am in love with you Garrett watts, always and forever."

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Sorry it had been a while but things are going wayy better for me so. Sorry that the writing is bad, it's two am and im tired as all hell. Anyways, i hope you enjoyed! Byee! 💞