fuck i fell in love. [garrett watts x reader]

its ok bb

Okay I'm not dead, I promise. A lot of shit has happened that i can't get into detail with but thank you so fucking much for 1.42k reads! Like what the fuck?! Ahhh! uwu ily guys sm!
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y/n pov

Garrett held me in his arms until I calmed down. Thankfully I finally did, i genuinely thought I was going insane. But can we just talk about one thing for a sec? Garrett, garrett fucking watts, fucking kissed me. Like it was nothing. nAnI?!

After my freak out, Garrett kept me in his arms but softly fell asleep. Keeping me up to just live in my own thoughts.  I couldn't stop thinking about if they did come back. I mean, maybe after five years they would just give up. Hopefully, ugh.

I squiggled around in garretts arms until I was facing him and put my arm around him as he was doing to me. In a non-creepy way, I just stared at his face. Admiring it. I can't believe it, everything that i ever wanted has come true. The person i fell in love with loves me too, I have the greatest friends in the world, and I'm just genuinely happy.

( time skip )

My alarm clock, being the annoying ass it is, woke me up. I groggily opened my eyes to get used to my surroundings. Garrett is still there. I smiled softly and decided to make Garrett breakfast. Im not the best at cooking but I can make pancakes at least.

For my journey to the kitchen, I put on my fuzzy house shoes and on my way I went. Let's see, eggs, milk, flour, sugar, salt, vanilla. Time to fuck this up!

And indeed I did kiddos, I fucked up horribly. Too salty, burnt, etc. Yeah, I might have over-estimated my talent in life. Best part is, get this, Garrett walked in the kitchen just as I was staring down at my failure. "y/n, what did you do?" Garrett asked, kinda like in a parental tone. I looked up and my eyes went wide, "uM nOtHiNg, i tOtAlLy dIdN't fUcK uP pAnCaKeS tHaT wErE fOr yOu." He lightly pushed me to the side so he could get one of the pancakes. Garrett then took a bite. After swallowing he said, "it's the thought that counts haha, chipotle?"

"This early in the morning garrett? Is human not right in the noggin?" I questioned. "No, seriously! Chipotle is life!"

"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."

"Fine, but only cause I want you happy."

"Yay!"

He sounded like a child but it was cute. I got onto uber food and ordered Chipotle for both of us. Once it came we sat on my bed and watched more Harry potter while eating. Genuinely it felt nice. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Finally the time came though, I had to talk to him about that damn kiss.

"Hey garrett, is it cool if we talk about something for second?" I asked. "Yeah y/n, what's up?" "So yknow the breakdown I had last night?" I replied. "Yeah, of course." "Well do you also remember how you kissed me?"

His face went pale and he seemed worried. "O-oh, did i do that? Im really sorry! I didn't mean to. Maybe I was just really tired," he replied. My face fell. "Oh, so it didn't have feelings behind it? At all?" I questioned. "N-not at a-all." He seemed really nervous. "Are you sure? cause you seem really nervous." "I'm sure."

My eyes started to tear up and i looked down. "Oh, okay. Hold on, I'll be right back," I said as I got up and walked out of the room. I walked to the bathroom and while my tears started to fall, I texted Morgan.

Crazy bb Morgan 🌚

Y/n: hey is there any way you can hang out with me all day so that I don't cry as much?

M: aww bb, are you okay? Of course I can! I'll be there in 10 minutes.

Y/n: no im not, I'll see you.

seen

I walked back into my room after I put my phone away and there I saw Garrett again. "You should probably go soon, I have plans with Morgan but can I do something before you go," I said to Garrett who was now looking at my sad eyes. "Of course, what is it?" He questioned. I looked him in the eyes as I walked towards him. I grabbed him by the face fast and kissed him for a full minute until I ran out of breath. "Did you feel anything?" I asked. "Not really, sorry, im gonna go now, bye y/n." And with that he walked out of my house, leaving my heart shattered.

As he drove away, soon came Morgan. She was left with the afterward mess that i am. "Y/n! Are you okay?! Jesus, what happened?! You look awful for one and your eyes, gosh, your eyes look broken," Morgan exclaimed. That's when all of the other tears came and i fell to the floor. I was so mad and sad at the same time "AHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK HIM FUCK EVERYONE EVERYTHING IS FUCKING POINTLESS!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. It hurt so much. Too much to put into words.

Morgan looked at my broken soul and sat on the floor, rubbing my back as I cried and screamed several more times. I felt like i was dying, and in a way, I was. My heart was breaking. All I felt was pain. Garrett was my hope that some happiness will finally happen in my life after the shit that has happened. But nope. Apparently not.

Soon I ended up staring at the floor, laying on Morgan's lap, and feeling numb after my huge breakdown. "You wanna talk about it now?" Morgan asked me, softly. I didn't say anything for a few seconds. "Garrett. Garrett is what happened. Don't fall in love kids. It will fuck things up," I replied. "What did he do babes?" She questioned. "He broke my heart, he messed with my feelings. Last night, I had a mental breakdown about them. Guess who was there for me? Garrett. And guess what he did? Kissed me. And this morning, he denied that there were any feelings behind it. I wanted to make sure so I kissed him, I felt sparks, he said he didn't feel a single thing." "Damn, y/n, you really fell hard. Personally, I don't think he's telling the truth about not feeling things. I can tell, he cares about you. He thinks the world of you. You might not see it, but I do. When he looks at you, he has the glint of love that he doesn't have with anyone else in our group. He might deny his feelings because of his sexuality that everyone knows him as but he has fallen in love with you babes. I know it."

I grabbed onto her thigh and started to cry again, scrunching up into a ball. The pain came again. The same pain that i only get when I'm in love. It can't be true, none of that could be true.

"lair." i said.

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Ahh, a chapter finally after a month and 3/4's of a month. Also isn't it great when you can personally relate to one of your chapters? (Cough this one). Im really sorry I've been gone though! A lot of family stuff, drama, etc has gone on and i just wasn't able to do any chapters! :( im glad to be back though. I hope you enjoy this dramatic ass chapter. I love you all so much. Byeee! 🌼💛