Missing

part 51

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i sat on the couch with a box of tissues and a blanket wrapped around me, the tv on playing spongebob, i look at the fireplace and wipe my tears

just to think that jeremy is right now in the hospital, thinking of when it's gonna be his last breath. when his heart is gonna stop and his soul leave the world

joey turned off the tv and sat down next to me, "he's in a better place now princess"

"i know but, i just wish i knew him longer, he was my best friend joey" i cry

he kissed the bridge of my nose and pulled me on his chest, "at least you got to know him"

lexi jumped on the couch, she looked at me and snickered, "get over it, everyone dies eventually"

i roll my eyes and pull the blanket off me and debate on throwing it in her face and pulling it back suffocating her or giving it to coco who seems cold. i wrap it around coco and put the box of tissues on the table

"wheres alex" she asked

joey shrugged his shoulders, lexi crossed arms and looks at the ceiling she takes a deep breath and looks down

"at least jeremys out the way" she picks her finger, "we just need to get alex to sign the papers and we are complete"

"what?" i look at her

she looked at me then at joey, she frowned, "joey didn't tell you?"

"tell me what?"

she laughed, "lexi stop" joey said

i furrow my eyebrows and stand up, "tell me"

she looked at joey and smirked, she stood up and smiled at me, "well... we killed jeremy"

my heart dropping lower then it already was, i take a step back and look at joey, "you killed him!" i yell

"no elena" joey stood up

i look at lexi and she had a smirk on her face, as much as i wanted to jump on her and wrap my arm around her neck and hear her begging for me to let go, "we" she points at joey and herself

"we killed jeremy, everyone already knew this" she laughed, " there was too many people apart of this group, we had to cut one off"

my eyes widened and my jaw dropped, i look at joey, my eyes filled with tears, "no, joey wouldn't let that happen"

joey sighed and looked down, "joey! tell me you wouldn't kill jeremy"

"i didn't kill him" joey said

i look at lexi, she rolled her eyes, "but tell her how it was your plan"

i fall to my knees and cried, i shake my head not letting this happen, i won't believe this, no

i heard lexi laughing and joey hugged me, i push him off me, i got off the floor and alex walked in

my eyes lay on him he looked at me in confusion, jeremy died for him, not for me

i run to him and jump on him, i start punching his face and watch as the blood gushes out of his face

he flips me over and starts wrapping his hand around my neck squeezing it and not letting me breathe, joey pushes him off me and i take deep breaths

joey jumps on alex, "don't you dare dare touch her ever!" joey yelled

i got off the floor and look at lexi, she had her hands behind her back with a evil smile on her face

"i'm sorry, i'm sorry" i heard alex cry

joey got off alex, alex face covered in blood, he passed by me and walked in the bathroom

"elena" joey whispered

i shake my head and run to my room, i slam my door shut and put my head against it, i slide down the door and cry in my hands

"elena, baby, please open the door" joey knocked on the door

i start taking deep breaths, choking on my own tears, "leave me alone!" i shout

"princess please"

"don't call me that" i say

the door knob rambled and i kept it shut, i got off the floor and push the door, "leave me alone" i say

joey starts pushing on the other side and i push with all the energy left in me

"let me in elena, let me talk to you" he says

"leave me alone" i breathe

joey stopped pushing and i let go of the door, i back away slowly and sit on my couch

i wipe my wet face and grab a pillow and scream in it, i throw it on the floor and run my hand through my hair

i bite the inside of my cheek to not scream and go out there and kill lexi on spot, i don't know why i haven't already

but i will

and this time i mean it, her and her stupid baby, i know it's not okay to talk about a baby like that when i haven't seen it

but that baby will come out just like her, and i can't and won't let another lexi in this house

this house? what am i saying

i'm leaving this hell hole, i'm not allowing myself to stay here anymore, i'm only 18 i shouldn't have a life like this

i should be our at parties with my friends, living the life i was suppose to have

with my mom and stupid greg, i wanna hug her again, just the presence of my mom isn't that bad

my mom is all i have, and coco

my dad betrayed me, turned his back on me for his stupid fucking wife, aadya.

i cant believe that fucking bitch is still alive after shooting her in the jaw, she should be in hell

i got a flashback of the people i killed at the motel, my hands start to shake

what have i turned into, killing people? that is not me, i would never take away someone's life, i take a deep breathe and look at the ceiling

i told myself i won't kill anyone

i killed someone, not one, but 2, or was it 3? or 4? oh god what have i done, my tears running down my cheek

i grab the hammer out my closet and break my window, i slam it on the wall leaving holes, i break the table and the closet

i pull apart my bed and break the night stand, i throw the hammer outside and take a deep breath

joey ran in my room and looked at me, "elena" he whispered

i wipe my tear and take another deep breath, i look out the window then at all the glass on the floor, my vision starts getting blurry, the room starts spinning, joey grabbed me and i push him off me

"elena, what have you done"

"just leave me to die, i don't.. i can't do this anymore"

joey pulled me in a hug, his scent calming me down, i wrap my arms around him and sob on his shoulder

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