Missing

part 92

5 days later
(don't play song yet)

i walk into cvs with my heart racing, i grab a basket and get chocolate and a shit load of snacks since ethan ate all of mine

he's been such a dick to me, after i left joeys he's been ignoring me and eating all my food, he invited everyone to go out except me so i was home alone with jeremiah watching tv

i pass by the each aisle and i reached an aisle i was trying to ignore

i take a deep breath and look at it a little longer, should i take it or not?

i mean it's been 5 days and nothing has happened, i haven't visited joey in the last 5 days either and i haven't slept well

greg found out and said i cant visit him for 2 weeks because i went against the policy, what a dick

i grab it and walk to the register, the lady looks up at me and smiles, "well aren't you hungry" she says

"please just hurry" i say and she nods

i watch her scan each item and she hold the last one and looks at me, she nods and scans it, she puts them all in a bag and i run off to the car

i drive home, the road was empty so i pick up the paste and drive faster. i park the car and run inside the house

i run to my room and slam my door shut, i hide my snacks under my bed and sit on my bed, there was a knock on my door and the door opens

"hey" lexi smiles and sits down next to me, "did you get it?" she ask me

i nod "yea i did"

she looks at me in worry "are you going to do it?" she ask me

i look down "i don't know what if-" i begin to cry and she hugs me

"don't cry elle, it's okay i promise i'll be here for you and joey is here for you too" she says

i wipe my tear, "but... i'm scared"

"why?"

"because ethan... he's been so rude to me this week and i'm afraid of what he might do, he's never been like this"

lexi frowns "just stay away from ethan"

"how? i live in the same house as him and i can't move because i'm free meat"

she rubs my back "remember you can always defend yourself"

"i cant... he's leader now"

"that doesn't mean you can't stand up for yourself" she says

"true but i wish he wasn't so rude to me"

i nod and she walks out my room, "i'll be downstairs" she says

i take a deep breath and look at myself in the mirror, i tie my hair up and walk downstairs to drink some water

"hey elle" david smiles

"hey david congrats on winning such a easy game" i tease and he laughs

"it's not that easy" he says

"whatever" i pour the water in my cup and stare at it, i drink it and feel the cold water hit my the back of my throat

i put the cup in the sink and turn around and hit ethans chest "i- sorry" i look up at him

"watch it next time" he pushes me to the side

"hey dude that's not cool" leo defends

ethan rolls his eyes "you wanna know what else isn't cool?"

i look at leo and told him to stop, leo walks away and i look back at ethan "you are such a asshole"

(play song)

i walk back in my room and grab the bag, i take the box out the bag and look at it, i put my shoes back on and walk outside to my car, i get in and drive off

i put the box on my lap, my heart was racing and i hate it, i shouldn't be worried i really shouldn't

i stop the car and look at the house were it all started

i unbuckle my seatbelt and walk out the car, there was a sale board in the grass, i look at the house and how clean it looked from the last time i saw it with caution tapes everywhere and police surrounded

i walk towards it and the door was locked, i open the mailbox and the key was in there, i take it out and open the doorknob

i close my eyes and take a deep breath before i open it and look inside, the door opens and i open my eyes

the place was empty and cold, i walk inside and close the door, i look around the place, gosh i really miss this place

all our laughs, cries, memories, are all in this house, joeys room was empty and i felt a hole in my heart

i walk upstairs and walk to my room, it was also empty, i remember when i spent hours in here crying to leave and trying to learn morse code, i laugh at the thought of me actually trying to learn

i look at jeremy's room which was now alex's room, stupid bitch no one has heard of him in so long

i walk back downstairs and head to the kitchen, the kitchen was where everything would happen, this room has the most memories

my stomach cramps and i groan, i walk to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror

i wipe my tear and look at the box, i open it and take a deep breath

i try to smile because everything will be okay and everything happens for a reason i remind myself

i take it out the box and walk to the toilet and sit down, i hold my stomach and close my eyes

i stand back up and flip the box upside down, i turn around and my fingers start shaking

"a child?" joey hesitates

what if i am pregnant, 9 months is so long and joey won't be by my side to help me through it

i need him by my side, how am i going to raise a child when i can't even sleep without him, but what if this is what i need, a child

i didn't get my period so i have to be pregnant, i stopped taking birth control so i should've got my period

i bite my nails and try calling lexi but she doesn't answer, i call leo and still no response

i sit on the bathroom counter and i have another minute to check before i get the results

i look around the bathroom, me and joey would always shower together, i giggle and wish he was here with my right now

my phone rings and the timer was finished, it's been 2 minutes and i get off the counter

i look at myself in the mirror and wipe my tear, i take a deep breath and grab the box and flip it

i'm pregnant

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remember when i told you she's not pregnant? i was joking ;)

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