When you find the one it is as if your world is filled with color. You find yourself feeling full with life. You start to look at everything so optimistically. You look at yourself in the mirror with such a light heart; full of the happiness that someone is in love with who you truly are as a person. Suddenly the idea of dying scares you because this person you have fallen in love suddenly is a huge reason for you to want to live. You think "I still have so much that I need to do with this person before I can die, I can't die now". You start to feel little stings of fear knowing that his death could take your love with him.
When you find the one, you will do everything you can for that person, you will give them all you can. On the surface the time you have will go to them, the happiness you experience will be expressed to them. Deeper down though you are given them so much more, it starts off small by tearing down your walls, saying the hardships you have experienced through life. As it progresses and go deeper into your life, eventually you have given some of the hardest years you have lived. In a span of a year or multiple with your loved one, in a way you gave them all the years you have lived; through stories or even through tears.
You know you love them with all of your heart when they have pushed you past comfort zones that you didn't even know that you had with someone. When you watch cheesy romantic movies you think of "him" being the one for you. You put yourself in those situations because you like to think of him being your "hero". In a way your heart seeps with emotions, sometimes it bleeds through the hardships but when the hardships are worked through it just makes you feel all the love even more. Goodness anyone can agree the how true the term "crazy in love" is, a part of you does go crazy, either crazy with the thoughts of it ending or crazy with obsession knowing you found the "one".
It is an endless cycle but what if it is only you that is experiencing those feelings? What if they aren't ? Those questions begin to plague your mind, the little things become more prevalent. Maybe a fight reoccurs one too many times and it has stopped making sense to you. Or maybe they feel like they are fading in your eyes, but how could you explain it? You just have this feeling of dread slowly beginning to grow. Your mind gets invaded by noise that you can no longer ignore. Everything you thought you could look past for the feeling of love, becomes the only thing you can think about. The little things should never be ignored. You probably told yourself "no no this is right, I know it, I have never felt this way for anyone but he".
What if he stopped loving you? What if he actually doesn't love you?
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Reality of Love
RomanceYou ever wonder what it means to be in love with someone? To find the one? I can give you the answers, the honesty of being in love, the reality of it all. You might hate me in the end but someone should tell you the truth.
