Lost boy // 5SOS

Nine

I shut the door as Ashton and Luke left, going to their separate apartments.

"I'm going to bed.." I mumbled walking through the living room and into my room, fumbling to take off my sweats and pulled on some of my 'girl boxers' hopping into bed.

I wrapped the blankets around me snug and started humming a tune my mom used to sing to me when I was little.

So goodnight you and goodnight moon

When you're all that I think about, all that I dream about

How'd I even breathe without

A goodnight kiss from goodnight you,

The kind of hope they all talk about, the kind of feeling we sing about

Sit in our bedrooms and read aloud like a passage from goodnight moon.

~~ Calum; ~~

"I feel really bad.." I mumbled, throwing my face into my hands, and looking over at Michael who nodded and sighed, turning on the tv quietly so Riley could sleep.

I cared for Riley a lot, and it hurt me to see her like this, but I just didn't know what to do.

"Michael, if something happens with Riley can I deal with it?" I grabbed a handful of popcorn and shoved it in my mouth.

"Yeah, sure." He shrugged, probably not wanting to talk about it. Michael loved Riley like family, but didn't know how to show it at times like this I think.

We turned on Insidious and watched it quietly, I wasn't too interested because I've seen it way too many times. I walked up to the kitchen and opened a cabinet, grabbing a bag of popcorn before stopping to listen for a second.

I heard Riley crying, but not just crying, she was hiccuping and talking as well.

I walked over to her door and knocked. "Riley? Can I come in?" I waited a few seconds before opening the door and sitting on her bed. "Are you okay?" I watched her intently to see if she'd answer with body motions, and just as I thought she shook her head.

I leaned down to lie down next to her and she turned around to face me.

"Calum.." She leaned in for a hug and I pulled back slightly to wipe her tears.

"Riley.." I hugged her tighter, letting her cry into my shoulder, not caring if my shirt was getting wet, or what Michael thought had happened.

I just wanted to be here for her.

"What happened?" I rubbed her back and she intertwined our legs together.

"I was just thinking about it." She hiccuped and started crying again, making me want to cry along with her.

"Riley hun, it's okay, it's over I promise." I soothed looking down at her and noticing she had stopped sobbing, and started smiling, making a held-back tear fall down my cheek.

I thought of kissing her, leaning in myself. But before I could she had leaned in a pressed her lips against mine, making my heart flutter uncontrollably. I tried to be as gentle and cautious as possible with her in her fragile state, secretly hoping she'd take notice.

We both pulled away, I didn't want it to stop, I wish I could've just sat there and kissed her forever.

"If I'm James Dean then you're Audrey Hepburn." I whispered, and she smiled bigger, taking notice of my reference.

"You wish you were like James Dean." She giggled, twiddling her thumbs, making me laugh. "I want to kiss you again." She mumbled, probably hoping I didn't hear.