Two faced (Got7 ff)

38.

It's been almost 3 hours. 3 horrible hours for my sensitive eyes. 3 hours where I only cried, and cried, and sobbed, and sniffed. 3 hours of pouring my eyes out. 3 hours for me to finally liberate every little thing I've been keeping to myself.

  Jinyoung as been next to me. Jinyoung as been caressing my back for 3 hours. He has been respecting my silence, and my cries for 3 hours. He hasn't said a single word, but I didn't needed words, I needed a friendly shoulder who would not question my cry. For 3 long hours Jinyoung has stayed next to me giving me comfort. The comfort I needed. The comfort I was craving. I say I am strong. I know I am strong. But I am also human. I have my struggles. I can't keep a smile on my face forever. And this time... this time was my breaking point. Contrary to Jaebeom Jinyoung didn't go to the base like he needed to. Instead he stayed with me when I needed.

For some time now no more tears fell from my eyes. Only sobs or sniffs came out. I could feel my eyes puffed and burning and my head hurtled like hell, but no more tears, finally. My eyes ran out of water to pour. Leaving my thoughts blank, I was just there, lost, I didn't have a single thing on my head, I had thought so much for so long that no more thoughts came to me, I was just tired. I felt almost... paralyzed. My all body fell numb. I was paralyzed, mentally and physically. I didn't have the strength to move, and I didn't feel a thing, sad, happy, angry, no, nothing.

Silence. It was the sound surrounding us.

Silence. It was the only thing I needed.

Silence. It was involving us. Involving me.

Silence. It was eating me alive.

Silence. This silence made me feel alone.

Alone. That was a good word to describe how I am feeling.

Alone. I wasn't alone. But I felt lonely.

Lonely. Why? Because I had no one near me who I could talk about everything that had happened. Lisa was far and I didn't want to bug her.

So I stayed silent.

So I cried silently.

So I feel silently.

Silence. It's always back to silence.

Silence. It is the thing that has accompanied me since I decided to enter that stupid agency.

SIIA. You are the reason for my silence. For my loneliness.

SIIA. My aunt brought me to it.

My aunt. I believed her.

My aunt. I trusted her.

My aunt. She betrayed me. My own blood.

Blood. That is what SIIA wants. What my aunt wants.

Blood. It is the end of the story.

Blood. It will always be the end of every story with SIIA.

Blood. It's not gonna be mine on the ground.

Blood. That won't be my end.

My aunt won't be able to break me.

Why?

Because you can't break something that is already broken.

Broken. I am broken. Always have been. Broken into tiny little pieces.

Those tiny little pieces of me that have been broken. They are been held for 8 persons.

Lisa.

Jackson.

Jungkook...

Jinyoung.

Yugyeom.