I Won't Hurt You

9. Sick.

The morning sunlight falls on my face, I brushed my knuckles on my eye lids and slowly opened them.

*Thoughts*
What a nice day for the birds... They are completely free, they do what ever their heart desires. They fly upon the blue sky and the sun rays fall on them making them look like black patches on an azure piece of paper.

And here I am, locked up in a room full of everything a girl could ever wish for except freedom. I want it back. I was once as happy as a bird and look at me now, I'm miserable and pathetic. I want my life back, I don't want to die in here.

*sneeze*

All my deep thoughts came to an end when I almost sneezed my soul out. Woah. I caught a cold. "What am I suppose to do now?" I said and a tired sigh left my mouth.

I get out of the bed. But wait what? Bed? "Didn't I cry all night sitting there?" I said to myself scratching my head.

*sneeze*
I wiped my runny nose with my sleeve. Sleeve? Clothes? Wasn't I wearing my... Noooooooo! This can't be. How could he? Who knows what he did when I was unconscious? Oh my God. I can't even look at my self now. I feel disgusted and filthy. I have lost my dignity to such an extent that I just...

Tears started falling down my eyes. I am broken, I had enough. I really just want to go to hell right now. Hell seems like a better place than this. I would much prefer to burn in hell than stay here. I sat back on the bed and kept on sobbing, resting my head on my knees.

* door opening sound*

Jin's gaze immediately fell on me and he rushed in.

"Farhin I-" he was about to cup my cheeks but I quickly moved away from him.

Jin just sighed and didn't face me anymore. I let took a deep breath and started

"Look Farhin, yesterday I was out of my mind. I'm really sorry."

I didn't respond. What could I have said? This man is insane.

"And I didn't do anything to you when you were unconscious, I swear. I was worried about you, so I came back to check but saw that you were sleeping on the ground in your towel. And you would surely catch a cold if you ..."

I just looked at him silently, staring at his eyes. He's eyes clear and watery, he didn't shift he's sight. He stared at me back. I'm not sure if he's lying or not but my heart says that he's telling the truth. I Still didn't utter a word and he looked right through his eyes into his soul. I want to find my Jin there. Not the psycho Jin.

I looked at him blankly as if I don't want to comprehend the situation anymore. I am done. He gazed at me and stopped. A heavy sigh left his mouth. He slowly lifted his hand to caress my cheek, to his surprise it was really warm, perhaps a fever is on it's way.

"You're warm. You need to rest. I'll bring some food for you." He said and exited the room.

As much I want to cry and die, I really need to poop so I rushed into the bathroom and pooped my emotions out. Shit. That's a lot of shit. Aaah my head hurts. I feel nauseous. I need to lay down a bit.

As I opened the door, I see Jin walk in with a tray full of soup and bread, medicine. I stepped out of the bathroom ignoring his presence although we had an eye contact whilst he was putting the tray on the coffee table.

My head feels dizzy, I took a step and immediately tripped. Thankfully Jin held me quickly and carried me to the bed.

He placed me on the and I laid there weakly. He took a piece of cloth and drench it on water. I squeezed the excess water out and stick it on my forehead. Aaaaaah this feels nice and cool. Meanwhile he took a spoonful of hot soup and blew on it. I tiredly watched him. He looked at me and did

I couldn't help but chuckle. I opened wide and he fed me. He kept on going so and changed the cloth from time to time. After eating he poured a glass of water and gave me a pill.

"Take this. You'll get well soon." He said and handed it to me.

I nodded. After doing so, he put the soft silk blanket on me and tucked me in. He patted my head as I laid there not moving a bit.

"I'm sorry Farhin."

I didn't reply and just closed my eyes to act as if I was asleep. He was still sitting there. I don't know what to say. Maybe he's telling the truth, maybe he is truly sorry or it may be one of his mind games. I don't know.

"I love you Farhin." He said sobbing.

"I'll love you till death. Don't leave me like her."

Her? So am I not the first one.

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