How I Became Zayen, a Zane Ro'Meave retale

chapter 12

He just stared at me for a bit.. Why.. Why is he doing this.. His silence.. It resembles guilt in a way that almost spoke out the words 'im sorry', yet he didn't bother to speak it.

"Your correct.." He spoke softly, another long silence following after his speech. It seemed to be that the world was spinning once more as it always had in my dire needs for assistance.. Ive never felt so alone.. Even with my lover standing right in front of me.. what is love? just another ploy to get hopes up? what are hopes? id guess from light and frankly, I don't really have any.. He knew that and tried to share his but.. I can feel my skin crawling... something seems.. tainted

"I did tell them.. And I took the blame for it Zane. Thats why I have a mark." He explained, followed with a few steps towards me, and me taking a few steps back, his words quickly regaining their powerful sense that always made me desire being near him, just so he could continue his sentence. "I told them everything that happened with me, you, and even Aphmau. I never wanted to hurt or leave you Zuzu, Please.. Just come back." He begged.

I stared at him for what felt like eternity, running through a million thoughts at once. am I suppose to react? However long I stared, He stared back at me as if expecting a response. when I didn't, he continued.

"I mean it.. I didn't want you to leave.. you have to understand that you're different and people are scared of you. If I didn't report you, we would both be dead. I told them id get you back and this is the only way for you to be safe from them. If you don't come with me.." He trailed off

I was once told by Travis that when a person is trying to defend themselves and they're hiding something, often they'll admit what they did wrong when you scare them with silence. So I kept waiting and listening. I questioned why he took me along, why he gave me hope and joy just to not care about what I wanted at the end of the day, but no.. I'm not gonna respond.. I'm gonna listen like my great teacher taught me.. He knows what I'm doing and he's not stupid. I could tell he was getting a little mad from it.. I've never seen him mad unless something bad was happening... but then I saw it.. his eyes. the way his green spiraled into a deep purple, the skin around his eyes decaying and scaling over with the rest of his body following.

A laugh of pure insanity erupted from inside of me and I didn't know why. I mean I guess it's funny he did this to me intentionally then tried taking me back.. like hell id go, id rather travel worlds if I have to.

silence...

I heard something in the other world about Trashvis being a demon but I can't remember much... the air.. itsss...

I don't want to be here

anywhere but here.. I may be dark but please.. help me find my light...

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"Try to understand it, even if it makes no sense. All worlds are made of fragments. it's made of everything and anything but nothing all at once. No-one can control the world, and many have tried. The world controls us and makes us flow with it. We can fight, we can swim, or we can sink. We can try to be anything and everything or we can give up or choose to be nothing all in one. a path is an important decision because even if you may not know where the water leads you, you can still try to steer."

those were the words of my favorite teacher. ah, but I got to be careful saying that, every time I think about him too much it makes me get flustered and then he gets weirdly close like he knows somethings up. after the lecture today I decided to walk around the school yard and get some exercise in, I know right, Zane Ro'Meave choosing to go on a walk? god it must be so painful for me, who's forcing me to do this? leave me alone, I'm not emo..