visiting zayn // zouis

First Visit - Seventh Visit

First Visit

Louis stayed all day Sunday waiting to get called to visit Zayn. Literally every nurse told him that Zayn was going to be getting tests all night and Louis would be better off going home and getting sleep, but Louis denied and said he must be waiting all day no matter what and that he had to be there for his friend.

Louis did end up sleeping in the unwelcoming and depressed waiting room because when the nurse told him he could go and visit Zayn, Louis was lying uncomfortably in restless sleep on the chair from the waiting room at the hospital. The tall slim nurse, dressed in blue, came and woke him up. He told him that Zayn was done for the day and out of the tests, but he’ll get some more later that day. Louis immediately woke up buzzing from the news that he could go talk to Zayn, he looked at her hopefully and asked her if Zayn was alright and if he was awake. The nurse avoided the first question and then went straight to telling him that Zayn was currently in a coma due to the awful injuries of the car crash. Louis looked down and felt his heart being ripped out and stomped on, but he knew this wasn’t going to be the pain compared to what was coming when he would see Zayn lying unconscious yet somewhat still conscious on the white hospital bed. He knew Zayn would look somewhat dead, lying there, so Louis decided that this feeling was going to be better compared to what was coming. Louis took a deep breath and stood up and followed the nurse.

Louis was sitting in the metal chair in the corner of the room staring at the many flowers Zayn already had; some from fans, others from family and others from friends. But in Louis mind he thought the prettiest one was the one he brought… it was a daisy. When Louis came to the hospital he was asked if he wanted the flower to be delivered to Zayn’s room by a nurse but Louis denied because he specially wanted to be the one to place it, so the daisy also ended up waiting a day with Louis. So, obviously the first thing Louis did was place the daisy flower in the middle of the crowded jar. Louis moved all the flowers aside a bit too rough just so there was space around the daisy so it looked nice and tall and pretty. Louis also brought along with him a beautiful ‘get well’ balloon. It was nice and yellow and happy for this awfully sad time. Louis wrapped it along the bars of the bed, which kept Zayn from falling if he did move which is doubtful since he is hooked onto so many tubes… Louis looked at Zayn and then it all hit him. It hit him that Zayn was in a coma, and he could be in one for as short as five weeks or as long as several years. That means Louis wouldn’t be able to see those beautiful golden orbs for many days, months or even years, he wouldn’t be able to hear that husky voice that could make him smile when the sound waves reached his ears. That also meant he wouldn’t be able to see that sexy smile of Zayn’s that could simply make a room happier just by him flashing it, it meant he wouldn’t be able to hear Zayn’s cheeky comments, or he wouldn’t be able to see him biting his lip or licking his lips. It all hit Louis like a bullet through the chest and Louis simply started crying and crying. He knew that if Zayn would see him, Zayn would give him a big bear hug, but he can’t. Zayn can’t make Louis feel better anymore, he can’t make him smile anymore, and he can’t make him be happy… because he’s gone… yet somewhat still here… Louis placed his face in his hands and his elbows in his knees he cried and felt sorry for himself, but he knew he shouldn’t. He shouldn’t feel sorry for not being able to see Zayn smiling, he should feel sorry for Zayn not waking up from the coma, Louis should be feeling selfish but all these emotions are just making him awfully broken.

Second Visit

The first time Louis came, Louis couldn’t mumble a word to Zayn. Louis just mourned and mourned about everything that was going on. It was all just so overwhelming to him, he felt that if he was in Zayn’s spot and Zayn in his, Zayn would be stronger and suck it up, while poor Louis just cried. Louis also felt awful for not coming yesterday, but they were recording for their second album. The other boys were recording in their hometowns, they were calling Louis many times asking about how Zayn was. To Louis surprise they didn’t blame it on him, but he knew deep down they did, they just didn’t want to make him feel worse.