innuendo | ben hardy

TEN.

'wake up!' says tom bursting into nailah's room who is currently peacefully sleeping after her long day at work yesterday.

'nailah!' he says shaking her as she eventually starts waking up, she opens her eyes slowly, looking at him annoyingly.

'what?' she says rubbing her eyes.

'can you explain to me why i was spammed with calls and texts by your boyfriend?' he says getting his phone out of his pocket.

'huh? what do you mean?' she asks as he unlocks the phone and gives it to her. she scrolls through the drunk nonsense he sent until she notices two messages that stand out.

ben: i fucked up

ben : but don't tell nailah

nailah's heart starts to beat fast at the sudden thought of what ben could have meant by that. she has one idea in mind and it's making her feel quite sick, she's wishing it isn't what she's thinking about.

'you okay nai?' asks tom looking at her.

'i'm fine.' she manages to say. she was still half asleep, she wasn't expecting this kind of morning.

'i should call him, put him on loud speaker so you can hear him.'

'but don't tell him i'm here.'

tom calls ben as it starts to ring, when the familiar voice answers, nailah's stomach drops.

'tom?' asks ben confusingly. nailah can tell he's hungover, he had the same voice when they first met.

'yeah hi ben sorry for waking you up mate. it's just i got loads of texts from you last night and i'm just a bit concerned by them, especially the ones about nailah, that's all.' says tom looking at her.

'oh yeah, i need to talk to you about that. are you at nailah's or are you at home?'

'i'm at home, by myself.'

'good because i fucked up big time.'

'what did you do?'

'i drunk called melissa last night and told her i was still in love with her.'

'you did what?' shouts nailah suddenly.

'nailah? tom, you said you were alone.'

'who cares if he's alone or not, you were really going to keep something like this from me.'

'baby, let me explain!'

'first of all, don't you dare "baby" me. you know i have trust issues, it takes me a while to fully trust someone and you go and pull this type of shit on me? no ben, fuck you.'

'nailah please! let me explain!'

'there's nothing to explain ben. if you were completely over her, you would have called me and said you loved me. which you obviously don't.' says nailah before hanging up the phone. ben desperately tries calling her back but she doesn't answer, just declines it.

'nailah? are you okay?' asks tom. nailah just sits there, staring at the floor, showing no emotions whatsoever. nailah has never been the type to cry to show emotion, when she's broken up with people or been dumped by people she's never cried.

'i'm fine.' she eventually says with a small smile.

of course she wasn't fine.

*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

as soon as he could, ben rushed back to london. he knows what he did was a mistake and he needs to let nailah know that. he needs to tell her how much she truly means to him. he was going to spend another day with his cast mates and new found friends but this was way to important to wait.

once he parked his car outside of her apartment block, he quickly runs out of the car and into the main lobby. he greets the doorman, who watches him in confusion, as he gets into the lift. he presses the number three before waiting impatiently for it to arrive at the floor. he rushes to her door before frantically knocking on it, a few moments later nailah's answers it.

'nailah i-' he says before she slams it in his face. he just continues to knock in the door.

'fuck off ben!' says nailah on the other side of the door.

'i'm not going to stop knocking until you answer the door.'

nailah sighs, ben has always been so stubborn. he won't stop until he gets what he wants.

'what?' she says eventually opening the door and crossing her arms.

'i'm sorry about everything, let me explain what happened.'

'and?'

'we need to talk.'

'isn't that what we're doing now?' she says sarcastically.

'no i mean properly.' he says.

'fine, i'm listening.'

'aren't you going to let me in?'

'no.'

ben looks at nailah noticing how tired she looks, the once sparkle in her eyes has now gone.

'are you going to talk or just stand there like an idiot?' she says rolling her eyes.

'right sorry. i know you're not going to believe half of what i say, which is understandable. this is going to sound like one of those clichés apologies where i blame myself for drinking too much. yes i did drink too much, i was completely out of my mind. i drunkenly called up melissa and told her i still loved her, which i obviously don't. if i still did, why would i be with you?'

'can i interrupt real quick?' she says making him just nod.

'i don't believe this bullshit apology ben. i'd like to apologise on my behalf, it's my fault for letting you into get into a relationship so soon after such a long term one. i don't believe you can fall out of love with someone so fast. you just needed me as a distraction to try and eventually get over her. but you never were. also the "why would i be with you" part? we're not together ben.'

ben just looks at her as his eyes get watery, he's just lost her.

'come on nailah, please don't do this.' he says quietly begging.

'i'm sorry ben, it's what it's best.'

'please, just give me another chance or i'll give you some time! just please don't do this. i need you in my life.'

'come back to me when you know you're fully ready to love me.'