Do You Want Me Dead? (Jalex) HIATUS

Chapter 6

Alex hadn't looked at me all week.

Was this a bad thing? Conventionally, no. Was I upset? Oh my fucking god, yes, I was. Whatever sense my mind used to make out of situations like this, I just completely threw that shit out the window. Sighing, I flopped my head into my hands. It had been a really long day of working, and I felt like shit, to be honest. Making friends here hadn't been that hard, but now my mind was other places. Even if this sounded stupid, it was true: I just couldn't stop wondering what had made Alex so upset. He was an asshole, and I hated his fucking guts. But there was this concern inside me, which made for an awkward, clumsy dynamic.

"Jackary?" Belle patted my hand, breaking me from one of those stupid fucking thought trances.

"Thanks." I muttered, shoveling some cereal into my mouth. She giggled, watching me. We'd become really quick friends, actually, because this girl was cool as hell. She came off all cold and badass, but I'd come to the conclusion that she was just the cutest fucking human being to ever grace the planet. Pulling her into my lap, I gave her a tight hug from behind.

"No!" She whined, pushing me away. "Let me go!"

"Nope!" I grinned, and played with her hair. She had such wavy, beautiful hair.

"Why can't my hair be this thick?" I complained, tugging it into a braid. Suddenly, though, I got that feeling. You know, that feeling. My eyes flicked across the room, and I found Alex's eyes boring into me. He looked away with sudden apathy and walked to another table, sitting down with his food.

"Alex just looked at me like I killed his cat." I said randomly.

"He's probably just jealous." Belle replied. I laughed.

"Why?" Alex hated me and I hated him back. There was no jealousy.

"Because he likes you and I'm sitting on your lap." She said in a duh voice. I laughed even harder.

"Excuse me? I thought I just heard you say that the biggest dick on the planet has feelings for another person. Gay feelings." I chuckled at this ridiculous proposition. Belle shrugged.

"Maybe."

"What do you mean 'maybe'?" I demanded.

"Once I found him making out with one of the male staff. I mean, he really doesn't try to hide it, ya know? I'm pretty sure he's gay." She mumbled, sitting back against my chest. "Do the thing." She commanded. Chuckling, I wrapped my arms around her stomach and held her there. At the same time, I was trying really hard to not think about the fact that everything she had said made a lot of sense. But why on earth would you be so horrible to someone you liked? I couldn't understand.

*•*•*•

At the end of the day, I just sat at the edge of the fair grounds while everyone else got things packed up. We were in Ohio right then, and these grounds had a little lake on them. It was actually really pretty, the way the circus lights were reflecting off the tumbling black surface in the dark. Clutching my legs to my chest, I just stared into the mass, totally mesmerized.

"Jack?" I turned around to see Daniel. "Oh, good, it's you. Here, this is yours. We have a mail delivery system, but it takes twice as long." He informed, handing me a letter. Surprised, I accepted it.

"Oh, thanks." I mumbled, watching him walk away. The letter was from my parents, and it made my stomach drop through the floor. Why had they sent me a letter instead of calling before? At this point, my phone was dead, and I wasn't paying for it anymore. All of the bills went to my parents' house. Apprehensively, I tore it open.

'Jack, you're an idiot for running away.'

Well, there really wasn't any other way for them to begin it, was there?