Text 24/7 [MYG]

E I G H T

10:11 AM

I was in front of his studio my hand out and ready to knock the door. I hesitated, I didn't know what to say or what to do. I want to talk to him, and see for myself if he really was alright. What was going on with me? I was so determined before, I was so confident in wanting to just have a simple conversation with him, but why am I hesitating? 

I sighed moving away from the door and leaned my back on the white wall. I rubbed my hands over my face, trying not to destroy my minimal makeup. 

Fuck.

I can't do this.

I heard a loud laughter coming from the inside of his studio. Suddenly it got quiet, I heard Hoseok's voice from the inside.

"Hyung, you should really talk to her about what happened". I could just imagine Hobi sitting down with his legs crossed trying to convince Yoongi. 

"I know, I said I would wait. I didn't expect that woman to confess her feelings the next day afterward. Should I have rejected her?"

"Hyung, you should have done what your heart wanted you to do. Go after Y/N. She's the one you love right?", I heard Yoongi sigh, "I don't know Hoseok"

"Just think about it Yoongi hyung"

"I have, but as much as I think about it, I may also like Suran Noona as well. I can't hurt Y/N or Suran like that"

"I understand hyung, but remember what matters is how you feel towards them. You've been friends with Y/N for a good year or two and Suran Noona the longest, but it's up to you Yoongi"

I almost cried.

Almost.

But then again I saw this coming. I wasn't any idol nor was I pretty. I was the total opposite. 

I looked like a potato, definitely not an idol, nor was I something special. I was just me. 

And that was the problem.

I was never going to get anyone I liked or sincerely loved. 

I saw it coming. 

I knew I said I wasn't ready for a relationship yet but I really cared for Yoongi, and if it was him, then I was ready to be in a relationship. Yet, why was I so sad and angry about this? Why was I feeling this way? 

I hate this.

He should have told me regardless, maybe I wouldn't have been feeling like this.

I'm such an idiot.