lists // hemmings

4. the list of worst moments

luke, 

i still feel like shit but i haven't done anything bad to myself yet. but i'll just continue to write and be a drab. 

sorry.

LIST FOUR.

THE LIST OF WORST MOMENTS.

-a boy opened the door to the bathroom when i was peeing at my house. 

-my mom made me cry when i was fourteen in public because she insulted my weight unintentionally. she thought it was a joke but i didn't.

-when i resulted in bringing a piece of glass to my thigh after the crying in public incident.

-i got into a car crash before christmas eve in 2006

-i lost a family member to 9/11 which made my dad depressed for a straight two years of his life.

-my grandpa died when i was there

-i'm crying right now and making this paper wet and the ink smudged.

-i would stop but that would be cheating and i hate cheating since i cheated on a test once and got caught and yelled at and you were there too and trying to smile at me but i got my first panic attack that day in the girl's restroom at primary school but when i tried to tell the teacher, she ignored me and told me to continue to play.

-on my trip to vist my sister in los angeles from florida, my plane dropped 600 feet and i thought i was going to die so i smiled. 

-i got in a fight once but it was pretty cool so i'm torn between good and bad here.

-moving from america to australia after the bad events that happened with my family but i met you so, again, i'm torn.

-my anxiety stops me from joining sports and playing games because i get anxiety attacks just from that

i think i should stop here. i'm not even going to bother to see if this is ten because my hope for this is degrading and i found out what dismal means and i am that whole definition.