Moving

Chapter 14

I woke up in the hospital again beside ethan in the other bed. He was doing alive and well and that's what made me grow a huge smile on my face😊. Gray walked in with some scrambled eggs and pancakes, of course. He saw me awake and came over to check on me. He asked how I was doing and how E was and he gave me a pancake and some eggs for breakfast. The doctor came in and said I could leave later tonight.but I told him I'm not leaving without Ethan and he said okay. I did however start walking around in the hospital to help my leg that was still healing and my head. My leg was all better but my head was killing me. Gray took me out to get some fresh air and relax my head. Somehow we ended back at the team 10 house, he said "you should go talk to Jake". I was so confused, but I knew why he was doing this, so I opened the door. I walk in and Erica and Tessa are practicing some dance moves, the Martinez twins are lying on their bed on their phones, the dobre twins,who I've only met once since I've been in LA were doing flips on the trampoline. Kade and Nick were in the computer room, and Chad was outside doing flips on his skateboard. When I walked in I saw Jake, just lying on the couch, sleeping, he looked stressed while he was sleeping, usually sleeping is supposed to relax you, I wonder what's on his mind, even tho I think I kinda knew. I sit by the couch and I didnt mean to but I woke him up. He woke up scared and with dark black circles under his eyes. It looks like he hasn't slept in the last 2 days. He just woke up and immediately apologized to me. *Jakes POV*
I decided I should go to sleep for a little bit since I haven't slept in the last 2 days thinking how sorry I was about that E and G accident and how I wanted to apologize to Y/N. I just layed down and fell asleep when someone woke me up and I say Y/N in my face, I wasn't sure if it was a dream, or if i was dying bc one of the twins got to me for revenge or something, or if it was real. But even if it wasn't I started apologizing immediately and she sat there with a straight face. Just staring at me. I said " Y/N you have no idea how sorry I am, I haven't slept in 2 days, you have no idea how sorry I am about E and G, Y/N please forgive me I never meant to hurt anyone I was just so jealous when Ethan came to check up on you and when you kissed him, I thought you cared about me, ik you do but you care about me as a friend. And Y/N I want you to know that I'm so sorry I really never meant to hurt anyone is everyone okay please tell me everyone is okay?" I said jumbling up my words from how nervous I was for when I was done to see her reaction. Again, she just sat there, then she moved her arm, it looked like she was motioning someone in. Indeed, someone did walk in, and it wasn't someone I wanted to see right now but also see at the same time. It was awkward. I apologized to Gray and everything I asked how E was doing, I felt so horrible I felt so guilty. Gray just said, "it's okay, he's alive" and then under his breath it kinda sounded like "barely". I couldn't deal with this, I'm supposed to be a role model I'm the team 10 person, I'm on Disney Channel "bizzardvark", I should be acting responsibly not like a child over a girl. I hate myself I should just disappear forever. I asked to see E and his brother blately responded with a big shake to the head. I understand that, but I just really wanted to apologize, I really did, I want to make things right, or at least okay with the twins again, I wanna be friends, but after this, I don't think there's ever going back from this...I hate myself 😧
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