I'm fine

Typical

—————present day——————
As I slowly crept into that classroom close behind Charlotte, I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. It was awful. He still had this effect on me.
When I was in the room I kept my eyes focused on the front of the classroom where the teacher was preparing her lesson.
Don't look back, Claire, whatever you do don't look back.
I sat in the second row beside another one of my close friends Lianne. When I sat beside her she didn't take her eyes off me, I looked at her.
"You saw him?"
She already knew what was up. During the whole heartbreak I kept to myself for a month. A whole, long, cold, lonely, terrible month. I couldn't socialize, but soon friends were worried and they went to the extent to show up at my door when I didn't answer their calls. Lianne and Char were always there for me, there were the first people I opened up to, I unlocked myself, and made myself even more vulnerable then I've ever been before, and they were helping me. Helping me slowly piece together my sanity, helping me get through emotions I never knew existed to that extreme.
"Yep"
I kept it short. She didn't continue talking, she knew I needed to think, or, forget.
The rest of that day was absolute torture, one of the worst day I had ever experienced at Scottsville Collegiate.

———————two weeks later—————
I was walking through the gym avoiding the cold brisk wind outside. There was a boys basketball practice happening so I tried to be quick and not interrupt.
I quickly walked across the floor looking at my shoes.
Suddenly I ran into someone, how embarrassing. I look up say sorry and continue walking.
Shocker, who knew, of course I just ran into him, HIM. I was overthinking everything. What is wrong with me. See, now I'm even overthinking my overthinking!
I thud down the stairs and see Jacob.
"Hey, Jake!"
I jog up to him, his 6'4 body towering over me at only 5'3. Jacob was Lee's best friend, and therefore I was naturally close to him. And I didn't want to let what happened between me and Lee to get in between that relationship.
He obviously noticed I was shaken.
"Hey Claire, what's wrong."
His normally happy face starts to look concerned.
"I just bumped into Lee."
Is all I needed to say,
Jake of all people knew how sensitive I was about this whole situation, and he was constantly trying to protect me from anything that could possibly cause me pain.

Last year Jacob had a crush on me, I felt terrible because he didn't know Lee and I had a thing. Jacob is an amazing guy but honestly I could never see him as more then that, it's just how I feel about him.

Damisi was the only one who truly understood what I was going through. I guess you could say he's more emotional, and sentimental then any of my other girl friends.
"Oh no Claire, it's okay shrug it off, u just ran into someone, could've been anyone, try to forget about it."
He shrugged.
I already knew I had to let it fly over, but for some reason, I kind of didn't want to.
As Jake and I kept walking to our next class, all I could think about was his face, those two split seconds that he looked at me.
Claire, you are pathetic.
Truly.
As we rounded the corner of the hallway in the main admin building Charlotte popped out jabbing her phone screen into my face.
"Claire, THIS is not good."
I had to hold her arm so I could actually see what was on her shaky phone.
It was a picture on Snapchat sent from Lianne.
There was a semi blurry picture of a slim blond girl walking across the parking lot here at Scottsville collegiate.
It's caption read
"She's here."
I could feel my face burning red.
"Great."
I mutter just barely audible.
"What, what is it?"
Jacob grabs charlottes arm so he can see the picture.
"Who is that?"
He looked genuinely confused.
"Makayla."
I say through gritted teeth. I was upset but the worst part was, I knew she was perfect. Lee showed me tons of picture of her when we together, describing her as if she were a piece of heaven. I should've known it then.
She's pretty, prettier then me by 100x. She's, funny, and weird but could always pull it off as being cute. And she was pure, sweet, and always nice, they've probably never had one fight...
"I'd bow that Barbie face anywhere."
Lianne groaned as she walked up behind us.
"Okay guys can we just try to pretend we don't even know. I would really want to try to forget about everything, and that doesn't seem to be happening anytime soon with you guys carrying on and on about his new girlfriend. She's perfect."
I say my words with a harsh tone, but I really want to forget, I truly want to move on. It's not fair. He found someone new, someone to love, and he left me here with my heart shattered in a million pieces and I had no idea where to start in order to put hem all back together.
"She's right guys, just drop it k?"
Jacob put his arm around my shoulder. I just stared at the ground. As he continued to lead me down the hallway, leaving char and Lianne behind.
But so much for that speech back there, for as I look up, low and behold are Barbie and ken, Hand in hand, smiling and walking smack dab towards me,
Oh joy.