Love to hate (slowly upgrading and editing)

Chapter 4

The next day

It was 8:00 am. I got up folded the blankets I slept on. I went in the bathroom, took a shower, bushed my teeth, then I wrapped myself in a large towel.

I walked out the bathroom with the towel still wrapped around me. I stopped in my tracks. Ezra was standing there with a blank expression on his face.

I looked at him, then I asked "Why are you just standing there, leave so I can put on some clothes". He seemed to step out of his daze and stare at me with those big brown eyes. Then he walked forward, then he kissed me on the lips, then he licked my bottom lip wanting to be inside my mouth, but I wouldn't budge.

Then he grabbed a hand full of my ass, then I gasped . He took that as an opportunity to stick his tongue in my mouth. I tried to move but his grip tighten on my body. Then I bit his bottom lips hard.

A little blood came out, then he bit my bottom lip with a lot of pressure, causing me to wine and push him away. This was so unexpected. I told Ezra to leave, but he wouldn't leave he didn't say a word, just his presence, aura, tells me he was not leaving.

Then I asked " Why are you here? We had an argument last night, then you come in my room today invade my privacy, not leaving when I asked you. Then you kiss me. Me not wanting to kiss you, but you know exactly how to boggle my head. You make it hard, you don't even think you just do without explaining your actions. " I stated

 " I thought that kiss will explain everything, you should know by now that I don't speak, I let my actions portray my feelings. And that should have told you that I want you, that I'm in love with you. ". he said " All that stuff I do for you and you just ignore me after you got what you wanted. This is exactly why I can't deal with you. he stated with a frustrated sigh You get what you want and go" he said.

"All those nights we spent together at each other house. You always kept me in the friend zone. After you got dumped several times, who was there? Me, not your mother, not your sisters, not even your family, but you always came to me and put all your problems on me. he stated passionately

I let you walk and leave with different dudes knowing on the inside I was hurting, because I was in love with you. Always have and always will be. Even when you were pregnant with Brandon, I bought him all that stuff, Jason didn't get you shit for your baby shower. I would do anything for you." he said angrily 

I was shocked I thought that Jason found out and bought me all that stuff when I was pregnant. I thought that because on all the baby baskets it would say, I have always loved you, have a good baby shower, love you Cassie. My mom even told me all the baby stuff was from Jason.

My mom knew that I didn't tell Jason I was pregnant. She let me think he was sending me all this stuff. But in reality she was using me to keep talking to Jason and get the pounds of weed and other drugs she could sell to get her a little money.

Jason was a kingpin and I was his baby mama. He got married. That really hurt me. I thought he sent me all that money and bought me all that stuff for our unborn child, but he just left me high and dry.

If it wasn't for Ezra I would be banging on Jason's door trying to get him to be a father to his child. He would look at me like I'm crazy, because I left him so abruptly and he wouldn't know what I'd be talking about.

His wife would probably try and whop my ass, but she wouldn't win because I'd dog the bitch out while I was pregnant. I'd be considered a ratchet baby mama or a thot. But if it wasn't for Ezra helping me, even when I pushed him away, and even when he was away, he still seemed to be there supporting me. Without me even knowing.

Ezra snapped me away from my thoughts, he was starting to leave. I called his name, he just stopped without turning around. I walked towards him, then I turn him around facing me. His expression was still blank. I hugged him, then I said "thank you for all you have done". Then I asked him could he forgive me.