"Are you still willing? I can't even take care of myself, how can i even take care of you?"
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Nagahama Neru exasphatedly sighed as soon she went outside from the operation room. She leaned her back to the wall and closes her eyes, feeling drained and exhausted after the seven hours straight procedure she took in. It was a hell, especially the patient that was almost in the brink of death. Neru hate losing her patient, everyone don't want of course. She hate seeing the cry of the people that losing someone.
A low groan escaped from her mouth as she felt the pain in every corner of her body especially from her arms and feet. Seven straight of standing and her arms moving non stop, also add the pressure and intense are what really made her worn out. She think, she can't even move for a second.
She opened her eyes when someone pulled her mask. A smiling face of her bestfriend and also her assistant, Saito appeared in front of her.
"Good work, Doctor Nagahama." Saito greeted cheerfully, Neru can't understand why she have the energy to smile and act cheery despite of what they through just a minutes ago.
"I envied how the way you smile." Neru said as she remove her gloves and walk straight to the sink to wash her hand.
"Because it's a success."
Neru faintly smile at Saito responded. She really doesn't have energy to retaliate the cheerfulness of the girl, she badly want to slam her dead tired body to the bed.
"Seriously, I'm so tired." Neru heard Saito laughed.
"You better sleep Neru, I don't think your body will last any second." Saito said, washing her hands in the sink . "I can't even believe you took three procedures without even taking a break. Im sure you missed your date again with Risa?"
The question from Saito made Neru stop from what she's doing. A regretfully sighed escape from Neru mouth which confirmed it. She looked at the clock in the wall and it read 3:36 am. Their date is 4 pm at their favorite restaurant. Nothing special, just a simple date which Risa asked for her for a week but she missed it.
Neru want to knock herself or strangle herself to death. It really slipped from her mind and she doesn't even call her fiance to apologizes because she forgot it and It's really too late to do that. She doesn't even know if the girl already went home or her whereabouts. She really feel worse, she's the worst.
"You must call her, she must be waiting for you." Saito pat her shoulder and give her a assuring smile. "I'll finish this, you can go home."
Saito pertaining to the finishing of their operation, Neru could only nodded, accepting the offer from her friend. She really doesn't want to leave it to her friend all alone, but she want to see Risa now. She want to know where her fiance is.
Despite the heaviness and drained body, she walk a bit fast to their department call room. She's planning to get her things out faster and head straight home. But as soon she open the door, her eyes catch first the face of the person she want to see the most.
"Risa.." Neru could only mutter her fiance name who is lazily smiling at her while sitting in the sofa.
Before she can ask her, she stop by Ozeki who's in the table, eating. "Oh, Neru is finally here. Risa's been waiting for you."
Ozeki said as she throw Neru a second look before she turn to her plate again. Neru can't produce a word as her eyes stuck to Risa, who is gently smiling at her despite how sleepy she is. Her mind is thinking why Risa is here inside their room, especially in this hour.
