rebound // Jungkook //

19 - leave

Jungkook POV

I was confused and scared... for Y/N. It was just too sudden. She told me to go back to Ji Eun so did she just asked us to... breakup?

" Dude... she just asked to breakup with you... " Taehyung gasped.

" But she did it for the better. " Lisa said.

It was too much to take in, i just couldn't.

" U-Uh I'll get going now... bye. " i hurried as i left.

- time skip -

I laid down on my bed trying to process everything that happened. I couldn't bare to leave Y/N. Although she's not my first but she is still my true love and i know it myself. I can never leave her not even just to protect her. I know it's a promise but it's hard to keep one, especially in this situation. I just didn't know what to do.

I decided to try texting her. I quickly took out my phone and went to text her a message, a pretty long one. I was on the verge of breaking down but i tried to keep it in. I hesitated to press 'send' as many thoughts and possible scenarios played in my head. I was going through so much.

' Arghh fuck it. " My mind voice spoke.

' Wait but i can't just agree with her.'

' Jeon fucking Jungkook make your decision!'

' Alright I'll just do it... ' The voices in my head fought.

I pressed 'send' and at the bottom of the text showed 'delivered'. I took in a huge breath and waited for her response.

- time skip -

Nothing happened yet. She still hasn't replied or even read my message nor even been online. I tried to stay awake to see her response but of course i failed and fell asleep in the end.

Y/N POV

I cried my eyes out on my bed, leaving large wet patches on my bed sheets.

Suddenly i heard a buzz coming from my phone. I wiped off my tears and rubbed my red nose as i sniffled. i grabbed my phone and read the notification.

' New message from Kookie ♥ '

I felt more tears about to burst out. I couldn't bare to read the message, i threw my phone onto the bed and remembered that it was Jungkook who gave me the phone and I just lost it. I cried way much more than before, my eyes were hurting so much. Before I knew it, i fell asleep.

- the next day -

Y/N POV

I woke up to the bright sunlight shining into my room along with the small dusts around the area making it look like a line of golden sparkles. I rubbed my eyes and went to wash up. I noticed how puffy my eyes were and remembered sobbing intensively last night. I tried my best to ignore all the thoughts and continued to wash up and change.

- time skip -

I finished showering and sat on the couch looking through my phone. I opened my messages and saw the unread message from Jungkook. I took a huge breath before opening the chat.

"Y/N look, i know you want me to go back to Ji Eun to protect you and everyone else but did you not know? Do you know that you're the only one i need, the only one i want to be with, the only one i truly love? You do right? Then why are you doing this? Why are you risking our love for someone who doesn't deserve it. I love you so much Y/N, i love you so so much that i can't and won't be able to leave you. Y/N please... "

I yet again bursted into a river of tears. I sobbed as my hand held my phone, shakily. My tears even falling onto my screen. I was choosing on which decision to make and it's literally like the hardest. I quickly wiped away my tears and the tears on my my phone too, preparing to type out my message.

" Jungkook... I do know that im the only one you need, the only one you want to be with, the only one you truly love and it's the same for me too. But im doing this to protect you, to protect us. Only if you go back to Ji Eun then she will stop this... misery. Jungkook, i love you as much as you do but i have no choice but to do this. I know it's going to be hard but im sure you will get over me. I love you Jungkook but just for me... can you leave me? "

I sobbed as i typed the message and switched off my phone. It was just too much for me, i needed a break.

Jungkook POV

I was eating breakfast when i received a message on my phone.

' new massage from Babe 😘 "

It was from Y/N. I froze and quickly opened the chat, preparing for her reply.

" Jungkook... I do know that im the only one you need, the only one you want to be with, the only one you truly love and it's the same for me too. But i doing this to protect me, to protect us. Only if you go back to Ji Eun then she will stop this... misery. Jungkook, i love you as much as you do but i have no choice but to do this. I know it's going to be hard but im sure you will get over me. I love you Jungkook but just for me... can you leave me? "

I was trying my best to hold in my tears but i lost it at the end. I couldn't even text her back or call her, i didn't know what to do.

Y/N... it's difficult to leave someone like you, don't you understand?

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A/N
Im sorry that i hadn't been updating for days, a lot happened recently and i have a lot of things to do plus my phone usage has been cut down and such ugh wtf. Also im flying off in less than 2 weeks so im currently trying to do my graded assignments and homeworks. i hope you guys will understand my current situation. I'll be in Korea until next year so i might not be updating much until next year, maybe just 1 or 2 more chapters for this year? im so so sorry djsjsj but thank you guys so much for 900+ reads i really appreciate it, we're so close to 1000 ahhh i love you guys so much uwu ♥ i will miss you guys !!