Save Me | K.T.H

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Thursday 30 march 2014

Chaengin felt so uncomfortable sitting around the table with Taehyung, Jungkook and his girlfriend, Go Dahae and her best fiend, Nae Eunbin. They're so pretty, and then there was Chaengin, looking like a fifty-year-old slob.

Taehyung was sitting next to her and was venting about how much he hated math. Chaengin couldn't disagree, she really hated math too, but it was really hard to concentrate when all she thought about was how to not get an anxiety attack when two damn pretty girls were sitting around you. She was nothing compared to them, at least that was what she thought.

They were nice, it wasn't that, it was just that she really couldn't befriend people. She still struggled to fully trust Taehyung, and they've been friends for fifteen days already.

"So Chaengin, what are you doing for living?" Eunbin asked and looked at Chaengin with a soft smile on her face. She rested her elbows on the table and leaned forwards.

"N-nothing much," Chaengin stuttered and looked down. She was really shy when it comes to new people.

"Chaengin, it's okay. Don't be shy, they're nice." Taehyung whispered. Chaengin looked up at him and gave him a soft smile. He can try to convince her for hours, but she still won't believe him.

Last time Chaengin thought she had a friend, she talked bad behind her back. She told everyone Chaengin's secrets. Now, she really couldn't trust anyone, except Taehyung. Or she don't fully trust him, yet, but again, she haven't trusted anyone so much as she trust Taehyung in a very long time.

"Do you have any hobbies?" Eunbin tried again.

Chaengin shook her head and looked down.

"I'm sorry, I have to go," Chaengin said and stood up. As she were walking out of the cafeteria she heard Taehyung say something about 'see you later, I think I should check on her'.

Chaengin was walking down the hallway, on her way to her locker as a hand grabbed her shoulder and turned her around.

"Chae, please just talk with them. They don't bite" Taehyung said calmly. She could see in his eyes that he really wanted her to become friends with his friends.

"I really don't want to, Taehyung."

"Why not? Do you want to have friends or not? You can't just push people away. They try to be your friends," He said and put his other hand on her other shoulder. "Please, just talk with them."

"Taehyung, you know I don't trust people and-"

"But you can trust them!" He said, "I know Eunbin and Dahae and the boys more than I know my own family. They want to be your friend as much as I do."

"But right now, you should be happy I'm actually your friend. You know what Sunmi did, so you should feel proud I actually talk to you." She whined and pushed his hands off of her own shoulder.

"I am proud. So damn proud of you. But please, you can't just push people away, that's not how it works. They are not as Sunmi, they won't ever hurt, lie, talk behind your back or do anything bad to you, I swear!" Taehyung told her, he really wanted the best for her. But little didn't he know if it was the best choice or not.

"Why is it so important for you?" Chaengin rolled her eyes. Anxious was an understatement.

"Because, you're my best friend and I care for you! I want you to be happy and feel loved,"

"If you want me to be happy you shouldn't push me to be friends with them, just not yet," She said. "And I feel loved enough by you."

"And you say you have no friend? It's not weird when you just push them away, when they actually tries to be nice to you"

"Well, that my problem-"

"Yes. Yes, it is your problem. I just want the best for you, Chaengin." Taehyung looked at her with a worried look. He wrapped his arms around his friend, hugging her, but she pushed his arms away.

"If you really want the best for me, just leave me alone for a while." She said and turned around.

He grabbed the blondie's shoulder. "Chaengin-"
Chaengin brushed his hand away.

"No, Taehyung." She said and walked away to God knows where.