Bonded by music (jungkook fanfic) [completed]

Chapter 8:the realization

Jungkook's pov

I have no clue why I kissed her. I felt guilt, for what I did to her. When I saw her in her room, something came over me. I never felt this way before, I told her I was scared of the dark. Hoping she would go along with it, and she did. I followed her back to her room, and when I was alone with her. I kissed her, I knew she would be angry at me later.

I pulled away from the kiss first. She looked into my eyes and they were full of rage. What she did next was unexpected. She cried, and then yelled at me to get out. I went to my room, wondering why did she cry.

I thought she would be mad at me not sad. For some reason I could take her being hurt but her being sad makes me sad. My feelings are so confused right now. I don't know whether to hate her, or like her.

But I think I am falling for her.....

Paige's pov

When he left my room, I sat down on the edge of the bed. How dare he kiss me!?! I started to cry because I was upset. Upset that he forced a kiss. What happened to the good, sweet jungkook? Why can't he be himself?

I started to read my book at my bedside table. I read a part out loud, and it made me wonder.....

"It's crazy how the ones that hurts us the most, loves us the most."

Maybe that's way he is the way he is. He likes me, but that's his way of showing love. I am scared of him, but just because I don't want to get hurt. I thought back to when I was younger, and my older sister and I was talking about dating.

<<flashback>>

"Ok sis, so there is a boy I like. I think I might love him. What should I do?"

I asked my sister out of wonder.

"Well, take it from me little sis. Never fall in love. It's only fill with pain and hurt. There's no light, or purity in love. But remember the difference between like and love. When you like someone you can't wait to see them everyday. When you love someone you can't live a day without them. Once you find your true love, never let him go. He might be mean at first, but that does not mean he is cruel on the inside. Find the light in him, once you do. Then decide whether it's love, or not."

<<end of flash back>>

After that I was always afraid to like a guy. I guess the reason was, I was scared if it was not true love. Every one tells me I should date, but what if the love between us is fake.

I want to date someone that loves me, and never lets me go. Maybe jungkook is that person. He may be mean and scary, and his niceness was an act. Then under all that on the inside. He is just a confused little boy, who needs to be guided.

What goes on in your head jeon jungkook?.....
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The next day went by fast. It was Sunday. We all decided to stay at the house. Then the boys said that all of them were going to town. I told them I was going to stay here. When they all left, I decided to call Sarah and talk to her.

<Sarah> hello?

<Paige> hey, it's me. I just need to ask you something.

<Sarah> sure, go ahead.

I waited a couple of seconds to think my next words carefully.

<Paige> ok. Jungkook last night came into my room, and he kissed me. I was so shocked, and ever since then I can't think right. Sarah I don't know if he is being mean to me cause he likes me, or it's because he is just being mean. What do you think?

She took a couple of minutes to answer. Probably decided what to say.

<Sarah> well, he might like you. Sometimes guys are that way when they like someone. Just don't give up hope, and pray for the best.

I though about it. Maybe she is right, he might be doing that because he does like me. But why does he like me.

<Paige> thanks Sarah, I here the guys coming in now. I will talk to jungkook later.

<Sarah>ok!! Tell me what he says...

Then I hanged up the phone. Everyone walked in at the same time. The last to come in was jungkook. Ok, Paige be brave. Just go up to him and ask him the truth.

I started to walk to him. As I walked I felt my legs go weak. Before I fell to the ground I was caught by two strong arms. When I looked up I saw jungkook.

"T-thank y-you." I quickly got away.
I then remembered that I had to ask him that question. I looked up at him, getting prepared.

"Um, jungkook?"

"Yes."

"Can I talk to you?"
I asked, at the same time my heart was pounding in my chest. Why?

"Sure."

He followed me upstairs. When we got upstairs to my room, we walked in and I shut the door.

"So, why did you bring me here?"

I turned around to look at him. He was giving me the same smirk. You know, it's starting to grow on me. What am I thinking...

"I needed to know something. It's been driving me crazy."

"Please go on.."

I took a deep breath and looked straight at him. Ok here it goes. Don't kill me...

"How do you truly feel about me?"

He looked at me and started to think. Oh god, please don't say you don't like me. That will be so embarrassing.

"To be honest Paige, I think I am falling for you. Ever since I meet you in the music room, I knew that I loved you. Now you tell me. What is your true feelings?"

I was shocked. He actually likes me, not even that he loves me. I had no clue what to say. I liked him, but a part of me does not want to get hurt. I took a deep breath, ready to tell my answer.

"Jungkook, I—

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Thank you for reading. What is her answer does she love him or no? Is he telling the truth or just playing her again? Fine your answers in chapter 9.
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