she's so beautiful
it's a shame because beautiful is an overused word
and it's the only word that comes close
to describing her
but i'm not her
and it may sound maudlin and hyperbolic
but that doesn't mean it's not true
i wish i was beautiful
but i'm fat and ugly
and i miss food
i feel dizzy all the time
and my eyes look too dark
and they all say my arms are skinny and they look scared
but i know
i'm fat and i'm so,
so ugly
and i'm feeling dizzy and faint
i haven't eaten in days
and that may sound maudlin and hyperbolic
but that doesn't mean it's not true
i'm so hungry
i'm so fat
but they look at my thighs and ask if i'm alright
and i'm not,
because i'm fat
i'm not beautiful
i wish i could be her
and that's why i can't remember when i last ate
and that may sound maudlin and hyperbolic
but that doesn't mean it's not true
because i need to be skinny
so that i can be as beautiful as her
and that may sound maudlin and hyperbolic
but that doesn't mean it's not true
YOU ARE READING
how to stay
Poetry*TRIGGER WARNING* really just me finding out how to not want to die; but i can call this a collection of poetry that encompasses the struggle of healing, the setbacks and relentlessness of depression and several other mental illnesses. love always.
