Confessions Of The Red Eye 🔚

Entry 11

Name: Kakashi Hatake

Age: 14

Does anyone care?

No like really, does anyone care?

Rin and Obito are already close to forgotten. Kurenai, Asuma and Guy haven't, sensei hasn't but everyone else had.

To be honest, I'm the only one who is in constant memory of them. I usually crawl into a corner and cry a lot. A lot.

Their faces are etched into my brain. Every moment I'm up and every nightmare is of them.

My new, red eye is throbbing. I see weird visions of a group of people, a white man and rain. Rain everywhere.

I definitely know this is Obito punishing me for breaking my promise.

I'm so awful.

I'm nicknamed Yugin Goroshi Kakashi from the villagers. Friend Killer Kakashi. It makes sense.

Both of my best friends died one years apart and I was with them.

So what if I made Jonin? So what if I'm a leader? None of that means anything without my two best friends.

I'm so sorry.

But like that's gonna do anything now. I recently just cut myself on my thigh. The pain was sharp, but the minute I saw blood pooling around me, I felt relieved.

I so badly want to see Obito, Rin and Oto-San.

I have nothing left in this world. I don't even know about Sensei, after his promotion as Hokage, I haven't seen him as much.

Oh, the bandage is bleeding through again.

Maybe I'll cut a bit deeper, see how much relief I'll get.

It's not like anyone cares.

No one should get near me.

After all, I am Friend Killer Kakashi.

Ore wa tomodachi no kirā Kakashi da.