Test Subject-Ivan Martinez

Chapter 11

Monday afternoon
I woke up and Ivan and Emilio were talking in thier room.  I gone in and Emilio stopped talking,
Ivan-Good morning sunshine
Emma-What time is it
Emilio-About 3PM
Ivan-Want to talk or
Emma-No just your guys beds are more comfortable
I laid next to Ivan and he pulled me in and I put my hand on his chest.
Venom-Are you two a thing
I wisppered,
Emma-No
Ivan-What
Emma-Nothing just Venom
Emilio-He's back
Ivan-Yeah, what did you think she is doing a test for
Emilio-Oh yeah
Emma-Speaking of the test, are you two coming
They both looked at each other and Ivan let out a sigh.
Ivan-No we can't but Mariosol is going to-
Venom-Leave right now
I got up but Emilio chanced and Ivan came after Emilio. I slammed my door and I heard Ivan trying to tell Emilio that he can't do anything when she is in this state.
Venom-They are just leaving us when we need them most
Emma-I should have not been getting that close to them, they will come and leave
Venom-That right, let's just push them out of our life, you know
Emma-Yeah, let's do that
I gone to my bed and I just laid there, I'm so bored, but soon a knock on the door.
Emma-Come in
Ivan-Hey you two ok
He came on my bed.
Venom-Get off the bed
I got off and Ivan looked at me and had a confused look on his face.
Emma-Plz get out
Ivan-What is going on
Emma-just get out Ivan
Ivan-Ok well I'm leaving at 8 so I would really like to hungout with you guys
Emma-No Ivan
Ivan crossed his arms and he just walked away.  Oh my god, what did I just do!?
Venom-Just tell him
Emma-No, he is just going to leave me
Venom-I thought this was going to be obvious but he likes you too, not like a sister eather
Emma-No he doesn't, he is just bring nice to us
Venom just shut up after that, he can't like me, I'm his little sister.  I think dose he even think of me part of this family or dose he just think of me as a temporary
person.  I started to cry just thinking about what he thinks of me, I looked thought my notebook and I am a good drawer but I'm not the best. I drew a picture of what I thought Venom looks like and it was basically the same thing, I never actually seen him but he was telling me about it. I started to write a song, it was called control and it was about Venom and trying to get into this family.
Enquire-Hey, dinner is ready if you guys want to eat
Emma-We're not hungry
Enquire-Ok
He walked out and I looked out my window, and I looked at the sky.  Soon I heard my door open, it was Emilio and Ivan.
Emilio-What you looking at
Emma-I don't want to talk
Ivan-Is this about Ruban
Emma-me and Venom want to go back, at least we don't have to get hurt
Emilio-But don't you guys like this freedom, trust me I bet this is much better then just sitting in a room or in a lab
Emma-Yeah but that why we don't get hurt, Ruban hurt me, fucking you guys are leaving and that's going to hurt me
Ivan-We are coming back
Emilio-Yeah, this hurts that we have to leave to but it's our jobs
Emma-But they suck
Emilio-Yeah but we get to do what we always want to do
I looked at both of them and Ivan looked at me with those eyes and I took a deep breath.
Emma-Plz leave
Ivan looked at Emilio and I put my feet up on the chair and I put my head down and thought about Ruban.  I could do any, anything at all to make him stop but I didn't because I was afraid that he would hurt me.  But he did hurt me.  I started to cry, soon I stopped when I couldn't cry anymore.  I just sit there and soon I heard my door open.
Ivan-Me and Emilio are leaving
I said nothing, Ivan came in front of me and he looked at me and I looked him.
Ivan-I wish I can stay
I said nothing, even though I really wanted to, I just can't seem to say it
Ivan-Your doing the best you can I know, and your so strong
I said nothing
Ivan-Can I get a hug
Venom-Say it
Emma-Plz stop acting nice I know you didn't want me
Vemon-NOT THAT
Ivan-Sorry what
Emma-Don't say that, I know you just want to make yourself feel good so you act nice to me
Ivan-Emma-
Emma-GET OUT IVAN
Ivan stayed but didn't say anything, I started to cry and Venom was talking but soon Emilio came in and tried to talk to me.  I didn't listen until one thing he said.
Emilio-I have depression, Mariosol or Enquire dosen't know, not even Ivan, you deserve so much more than to just be tested on because you told people about Ruban
Emma-What
Emilio rolled up his sleeves and they had new and old cuts, I looked at them and Emilio looked at me.
Emilio-I know what it feels like to feel aboned because I have felt that way to but god made you the way you are for a reason
Venom-Tell him at least
Emma-Do you look at me as part as this family
Emilio-Yes, I look at you and Venom as another siblings
Emma-What about Ivan and Rebecca
Emilio-Rebecca, will she is just used to being the only girl and Ivan just has somethings he need to figure out
Emma-So yes or no
Emilio-Their trying