Test Subject-Ivan Martinez

Chapter 19

I had a good day, not just because of Lilith, Cora, and Blythe, or Copper, but because I feel like I can live here until I'm  18 and I can live with Ivan and Emilio.  I was on the phone with Rebecca,
Rebecca-Sorry that the boys aren't back
Emma-It's ok, how are you doing
Rebecca-Worst then ever, we don't even know what we are doing with the house
Emma-Maybe you can live in it
Rebecca-That is a great idea, Ivan and Emilio are moving to Spain still so that is a good idea
Emma-Hey Rebecca, would you think Ivan would be mad if I stayed in the lab until I'm 18
Rebecca-Why do you like it there
Emma-Yeah I guess I kinda do
Rebecca-I don't mind taking you in, but if you want to stay there he can't force you to do anything
Emma-Yeah
Rebecca-I think if you know what you want and you have a plan then he will understand you think you are being there
Emma-What about Emilio
Rebecca-I think he would say the same thing
Alissa-It's time to wrap it up
Emma-I have to get going
Rebecca-Om want me to tell Iv or Em something
Emma-Just tell them I miss them
Rebecca-Ok will do
Emma-Thank you
Rebecca-Bye Emma
Emma-Bye
I hungged up and I put on some PJ's I really miss Ivan.  But I really like this place.  When I laid down in my bed I thought about everything, I thought about life, but this time I wonder what do me and Ivan have.  I didn't go to sleep, I guessing I had like 3 hours in all but I got up and I didn't feel like eating,
Lilith-Hey guys what's up
Emma-Tired
Lilith-You sound sad, why
Emma-Miss my brother and sister
Lilith-I thought you two didn't have any siblings
Emma-From foster care sorry
Lilith-Want Copper to help with that
Emma-No, I'm fine
Lilith-Ok, what are you getting
Emma-Nothing, I'm not in the mood for eating
Lilith-Yeah me earlier, want to just sit down
Emma-Yeah sure
We sat down and Copper sat down by me and he was close, and I mean way to close.
Copper-I hope I'm not making you uncomfortable
Emma-Is every boy a fuckboy
Copper-I'm sorry I didn't mean to come off that way
Emma-Sorry, just I have PTSD because of a guy and it just happened like 2 mouths ago so-
Copper-What's PTSD
Emma-Oh, um, it's stands for Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, it's when your fight or flight response comes in
Copper-So like a guy did something to you
Emma-Yeah
I thought about Ruban and his dumbass looking face and I was about to cry. 
Copper-Your smart, did you ever go to school
Emma-No, I um was supposed to but then shit gone down and yeah
Copper-You should sign up for school, we sometimes get to go outside and we do get homework but they give you a long time to do it
Emma-How do I sign up
Copper-Who is your cause worker
Emma-Alissa
Copper-Oh then you just ask her and ask for Mrs.Lee during 4:30 to 6:30
Emma-That seems like a long time
Copper-Yeah but it's so fun
Emma-Ok
I smiled and he smiled back,
Venom-He likes you
I smiled some more, Ivan said that we could mess around with other people.  So I guess it's ok. I talked to Cora and Blythe and they were talking about random shit.  Soon Cora's case worker came in and told her that her mom is here.
Lilith-Good luck
Cora-With my mom I will need it
They laughed,
Angelina-Hey Copper, how you doing
Her hand rubbed up his stomach and Copper smailed.  I wish I could talk to Ivan.
Venom-Tell them to stop or leave
Lilith-Hey you guys ok
She touched me and I jumped and started to freak out.  Everyone was looking but I didn't care, soon the people took me back to my room and I started to cry.
Alissa-Emma
Emma-Can I call Ivan
Alissa-Let's see, just I need you to claim down and tell me what's wrong
Emma-I can't do this, I tired of being alone, I'm tired of only having Venom to talk to
Alissa looks down at her pager and my phone started to rings, of course she stays there.
Ivan-Hey babygirl
Emma-I want to come home
Ivan-Why what happened
Emma-Just it's exhausting for me to explain to everyone what to do and what not to do...you guys know how to deal with me
Ivan-Baby, I need you to take a deep breath
Emma-Your not getting it, I want to stop breathing
Ivan-Don't talk like that, I'm already dealing with Em and know myself right now
Emma-It's ture, please someone come pick me up i don't want to be here
Ivan-But if you come with us, people will not understand at school and they will do this to you
Emma-I thought you wanted us there
Ivan-Babygirl of course I do but I don't want you to come home because some one did something that was wrong, I'm not going to date a quiter
I laughed,
Ivan-I have been thinking alot about you
Emma-Oh yeah like what
Ivan-You know boy's stuff
Emma-Oh ok, I get it
Ivan laughed and I laughed too,
Ivan-But really just breathe, I love you and I miss you so much babygirl
Emma-I love you and miss you to king
Ivan-I wish I can kiss you
Emma-I wish I could too
Ivan-So I have been talking to Alissa and I thought you would like to go to Mariosol funeral so she said that's ok just she needs to be back by a time
Emma-So I actually get to see you guys
Ivan-Yup, so what do you think
Emma-Yeah, yeah, I will come
Ivan-Will you be my date
Emma-Yes king I will be your date
Ivan-I love you
Emma-Love you too