Now Im a Warrior (Demi Lovato)

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This chapter is a filler so just bear with me the next chapter will be better. I promise

I woke up early that morning. Around nine o'clock. Every time someone came into my room to try and get me to eat I would act like I was asleep because I still felt sick from eating last night. I knew if I ate again I wouldn't be able to keep it down.

It was around twelve now so I know someone's going to come in and make me eat eventually. I'm not looking forward to it but I have to.

For Demi.

I've been writing in my journal for a few hours. I just wrote random things. No one knows about this journal because I hide it. I write everything in it.

Everything.

Like sing lyrics, how I feel at the time I write it and just quotes I like or come up with. One of my favorites is I will not let the past define who I am today.

That quote means a lot to me. I'm not sure why but it just does.

At the moment I am just laying in my bed staring at the celling. Thinking.

A few moments later Kelly came in.

"Alex, time for lunch. You slept through breakfast but you have to eat now" she said kindly

I didn't want to move. I just stayed completely still.

"Alex." She said sternly

I finally gave in because I was too tired to put up a fight. I was writing until about five this morning.

Once again just random thoughts I had throughout the night.

Something I've learned throughout the past week or so is that writing helps distract myself for when I want to harm myself.

"Fine ok, I'll be right there." I groaned

She left the room and closed the door. I got up and put a gray seater and black jeans on then left the room.

I walked slow because I didn't want to eat. I could smell the food the closer I got.

I quickly got in line and got a turkey sandwich with mayonnaise and some water. I had no trouble spotting Kat because of her red hair.

I walked over to her table and sat down.

"Hi" I said sitting down

"Hey" she replied.

"How are you?" I asked

"I'm good, how about you"

"Tired, I went to sleep at five and woke up at nine" I said

"I didn't sleep at all but I'm not that tired to be honest" she said

Then we sat there in silence and ate our food. We finished a few minutes later and threw our trash away.

"Do you want to go and watch tv?" I asked her

"I can't, I have therapy in about ten minutes" she said

"Oh ok" is all I said

"When do you have therapy?" She asked

"I'm not sure yet, they'll probably tell me soon" I said

"Yeah probably, I'll see you later" she said

"Ok, see you later" I said waving her bye

I walked back to my room and quickly got under a blanket because I was cold. I laid my head back onto the pillow drifting off into sleep.

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HI IM SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED IN OVER 3 WEEKS. I've had writers block which I still do but I needed to update so you get this crappy chapter. I've also been on vacation, getting ready for school and I had soccer tryouts last week.

I made the team in case any of you were wondering 😎🎊🎉

But I start school next week and have soccer practice everyday until 5 so I'll try and update every week and a half or so but i don't know yet.

But yeah sorry for this terrible chapter. BUT THANK YOU FOR 2.5K READS OH MY GOD ICE CREAM FOR EVERYONE 🍦🍨

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