I don't what sleep is anymore. My eyes look bruised. There isn't much to do in Scranton. We live right on a lake surrounded by woods. I spend most of my time there. High up in my favorite oak I watched the sky turn from navy to a soft orange and purple. Blowing smoke from my last cigarette I climbed back down. I had to get back inside. Act like everything was fine. I've been in the band for 10 years, I've been with Liz for 3. I still had my secrets. Walking the woods I sang. Immaculate misconception. It's one of our old songs but it will always be one of my favorite. Everything went black. I felt nothing as my fists struck the trees over and over again. My screams getting louder as I slammed my head into them. I didn't hear Chris yelling for me to stop. I don't know where I was. I couldn't feel Liz shaking me. Just a endless sea of nothing.
I woke up to a bright light in my eyes, without thinking I smacked it. "DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME" bad idea. I was in the hospital Liz on one side of me and Chris on the other. I swear to hell these two have seen every side of me yet they never leave. God I fucking love them. "I'm going home. " getting up I shoved the nurse out of the way she must have hit the floor because I heard a thud. In seconds Liz was trying to drag me back into the room. She's a lot stronger then people think. Picking her up I continued to walk to the hospital doors. It wasn't going to happen they had it barricaded. Turning around Chris was there ready to knock me out if he had to. It wouldn't be the first time. Setting Liz down I backed up so I could get a running start. Going full speed I crashed into him as soon as we hit the ground I got back up and took off down the other side of the hall. Pushing open the door to the fire escape stairs I ran down them soon into the ally behind the hospital.
My ears where filled with the sound of my shoes hitting the pavement as I ran. The hospital was 20 miles from our house. Turning I ran into the park on the corner of north and spruce. There was woods that lead to west ave and brook st it would take me right to the cemetery we filmed reincarnate in. From there I could walk home through the path between the old mental hospital and the swamp. Once I felt safe I slowed into a walk. I have a few rules. If I don't know you, don't fucking touch me. Never cage me in. Home would be fun. Liz would never yell at me. She was my calm. Chris on the other hand, there will be blood. Opening the door the house was silent maybe they would let it go. Going upstairs I shut my door. Laying down I shut my eyes. I could hear foot steps my door flew open. Chris. His hand soon around my throat. "WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE RICK." I couldn't find words so I kicked him. It was no use. He threw me onto the floor like a rag doll. "I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR PROBLEM IS BUT YOU BETTER CUT THE SHIT."
I laughed rolling over looking up at him "make me bitch." God damn me and my mouth. He had his hand around my throat again "I'll put your ass back in the mental institution and drug you so much you won't know your mother fucking name. Don't test me." His grip got softer as he pulled me into a tight hug "I'm not losing you again rick. ". The last time I was still in high school. I had killed my moms boyfriend. I was in that fucking hospital for two years. It's why I can't stand white. Why I hate people holding me to tightly. The reason to my nightmares. Liz doesn't know. She just thinks I'm shy. She has no idea I used to kill people. Just like Dexter. It's my favorite show for a reason. Only my victims are buried in that cemetery. "Let go." I tried to wiggle free but his grip was to tight.
Liz must have been with the others because I couldn't hear her. I slammed my head into Chris's chest but he didn't move. Only held onto me tighter. "Not this time. " I felt a sharp stab everything faded. I woke up to Liz changing the bandage on my head from when I hit the tree my body felt like it was a million pounds. I held onto the edge of her shirt yawning. I coughed as she plopped a pill into
My mouth. "Swallow. Or no coffee." I laughed swallowing before I sat up. She handed me my coffee. "What am I grounded?" She nodded. "Chris said you can't leave your room for a while. At least until your concussion gets better." Great. Caged again. I nodded turning on the tv leaning into the pillows. She crawled into the bed joining me. Softly playing with her hair I tried to stay awake. Setting the cup on my nightstand I let sleep take over.
I could feel fingers brushing my hair off of my face. The smell of cinnamon and rose. Chris and wyn. I smiled rolling over Liz still at my side I could hear her watching Kiki delivery service. "He seems calmer." I stuffed my head under my blankets." I was awake but I didn't want to open my eyes. " probably just the demon or something. "I could feel Liz rest something on my head. I think it was chips. Wyn must have crawled onto my bed because someone was sitting on my foot. I couldn't help but laugh when Chris shoved me over so he could sit too. This isn't a cage. This is my family taking care of my crazy ass.
