Under the Moon's Gaze (Alex Summers X-Men First Class Fanfiction)

Chapter Twelve: War

Chapter Twelve

Sitting in the window nook in my room, I stared out the window lost in thought. I was so out of it that I didn’t even notice that my door had been opened, or that it was closed again; I didn’t even notice that there was someone in my room until they were right next to me.

“What are you doing?”

I jumped a good couple inches off my seat, nearly falling off.

“Raven! You scared me.”

“Well if you weren’t spacing out you would have heard me knocking before I came in.” She told me in a duh tone of voice. “What were you so lost in thought about anyways?”

“I- I don’t know. I’m really confused is all.”

“Well what are you confused about? Maybe I can help you.” Raven asked making her way beside me in the window seat.

“Well you see, I’ve been feeling strange these last couple of days. My cheeks heat up, I feel all giddy inside and can’t help but smile and I suddenly get really nervous; but the thing is, well I only ever feel that way when I’m with Alex. At first I thought maybe something was wrong with me, but I didn’t dislike feeling that way, in fact I actually kind of like it. I asked Hank what he thought it might be, you know since he’s so smart, and well he said that…. Well….. What do you think?” I explained my cheeks once again changing into a light shade of pink as I explained what I was feeling.

I heard a squeal come from Raven and a giant smile covered her face.

“Oh I knew it, about time you noticed too. Oh Lucy you like him.”

My face became even redder at the confirmation of my feelings. After my talk with Hank I had a feeling that that was what it was but I wasn’t a hundred percent sure, I mean I never had any sort of experience with love or boys for that matter; I was locked away for most of my life for Christ’s sake. I wasn’t sure if I liked him or if I just wasn’t used to being around others, but I don’t feel the way I do with the others like when I’m with Alex. Suddenly another thought invaded my mind and my smile turned into a frown.

“What’s wrong?” Raven asked, noticing my change in mood.

“What if Alex doesn’t feel the same way? What am I suppose to do then?” I couldn’t help but worry. I had only just discovered my feeling and was terrified of being rejected. Maybe it would have been better to have not even noticed them, now I just felt scarred and worried.

“Don’t worry; I’m absolutely positive that he has the same feelings in return. I’ve seen the way he looks at you, like if you were the most precious and fragile thing in the world. Whenever you’re not looking, his eyes are glued on you.” She reassured me. “Even Erik’s noticed, whenever he catches Alex looking at you he sends daggers at him with his eyes. If looks could kill” She laughs.

I feel a little better but am still worried about what may happen, “But what do I do now?” I whisper, not even noticing I said it out loud.

“Listen, love can be a very scary thing you know; it’s not all happy feelings, the thoughts of not knowing if the other feels the same and even when you do know there are times when things get rough. But one has to work hard and get through all that in order to get to the more beautiful side of things, its knowing that there were complications and that you worked through them that makes a relationship stronger.” Raven told me.  “Don’t worry so much, just let things progress on their own. Just go on like normal, the only difference now is that now you know what you feel which can only work to your advantage. Everything will work out, just watch.” She squeezed my shoulder, sending me a small smile and a wink.