THE GIRL FROM THE ALLEY

The Talk

" get me my dog. I need to leave. Right now. " I said to him.
" You can't. It's storming outside. "
After that, his phone buzzed up. He picked it up.
" ah yeoboseyo hyung! "
" ani, I'm dealing with some trouble here. Arraeso. I'll be there. Anneyong!"
You are just a trouble for him. You are a trouble for everyone. Good for nothing. Just go away already. They have more important stuff to deal with than just a piece of shit like u. A lot more important stuff. You are just a worthless piece of dead meat.
I was snapped out of my trance when Jungkook asked me, " you okay? You seem lost"
" oh I'm perfectly fine."
One of the biggest lies I will ever tell you .
" I have to go back to my dorm. I'll be back in sometime. Do. Not. Go. Anywhere. I need to talk to you about something. Okay? And oh, make yourself at home and eat something from the kitchen. You must be weak since you passed out. Bye! "
I nodded like a little child and with that, he left.
The first thing I did was to rush to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. My head and arms bandaged up. I didn't deserve this at all. I fished through the cabinets in order to find a razor blade. I finally found one and started to unwrap the bandages off my arms.
I'm dealing with some trouble
You passed out
I need to talk to you
Oh, I'm perfectly fine
The words echoed inside my head and triggered me. Soon, things got out of control since Baby wasn't there to comfort me. I stopped myself before I could pass out and re wrapped my bandages. I put on a hoodie from the closet and went to the kitchen.
Since I wasn't hungry, I put my head on the dining table and dozed off.
This was the problem with me. I would cry so much at the littlest things ever and when something major happens, boom.. I am completely unable to react properly.
JUNGKOOK pov.
I went to our dorm and found all the members at the couch.
" sit here.  And explain. " Namjoon hyung said sternly. I looked over to Taehyung and Jin hyung and they gave me apologetic looks. I glared at them and sat down on the couch.
" kookah, we know you want to help her but you just can't bring some stranger home. " Yoongi hyung said softly.
" I was nowhere close to bringing a stranger home but it suddenly started raining and I had no choice. She is very sweet. And she is an army. I'm sure she doesn't have a dark background or something. " I said truthfully.
" ...okay.. " jimin hyung said.
" and one more thing.. She is a, you know,  I saw her arms,  she hurts herself " I said not being able to keep the painful secret inside. Everybody balled their eyes out and was about to cry.
" we would like to meet her.  Bring her here. " Namjoon hyung said.
" I don't think that making her meet all seven together is a good idea. She had a panic attack when she saw V hyung. "
" I would like to meet her first" Yoongi hyung said.
"okay.. Kaja. " I replied and we headed to the apartment. Before stepping out,  I asked taehyung to bring her dog with us.
"oh he is playing with yeontan. Wait I'll bring him. "
He got her dog whose name tag said 'Baby'. What a cute name.. My heart is fluttering
I took his leash and headed to the apartment. We opened the door silently and found her sleeping calmly at the dinner table.
Aw..she looks so peaceful.
I stood there admiring her beauty. Her innocent expression, long and beautiful eyelashes, fringes almost covering her eyes, her pink, plump but small lips with a beautiful natural pink shade, her slender fingers showing through the oversized hoodie.  My heart felt a sense of strange peace to be around her suddenly making me forget all my worries.
" do you like her or something? "
Yoongi hyung said and I suddenly jumped.
" oh.. Not at all. " I replied.
Maybe I do... Just a teensy bit.
"she is beautiful " he said looking at her.  Suddenly, her dog pulled on the leash which I barely had a grip on and ran up-to her. He snaked his head through under her arm and onto her cheek and licked her face. She flinched at first but suddenly opened her eyes and hugged her dog.
" oh. Finally. I missed you so much " she said ruffling his ears and looking into her dog's eyes deeply as if he was the only thing she owned on earth. A smile creeped up her face and she looked over to us.
Y/n pov
I was woken up by baby licking my face. I was so relieved to see him.
He was my best friend ever. A piece of my heart. One of the only things that could make me smile.
"oh. Finally. I missed you so much. "
I ruffled his ears which was one his favourite things ever and looked into his blue eyes.
(imagine he is a little older than this puppy since I couldn't find an adult one with blue eyes)

His eyes contained the most beautiful shades of blue . The moment I saw him at the breeder,  I fell in love with his eyes. He looks into my eyes like a long lost friend would after being lost for a thousand years. His eyes have a secret I can never decode. He can say a hundred words through his eyes.
I can understand everything he wants to say just by the look of his eyes. I looked over to Jungkook and saw.. Min Yoongi with him. They walked over to me and sat down on the chairs opposite to me.
" Hello. I'm Min Yoongi. Don't be scared.  Treat me like a friend. "
He said looking at the bandage on my head. My eyes went down to my feet out of embarrassment.
"what's on the ground? Look up at us." jungkook said smiling at me.
"it's not that..  I'm just a bit nervous "
I replied honestly and covered my barely visible fingers with the hoodie sleeve, I felt so shy.
They both chuckled then Jungkook said, " come, sit on the couch. Let's talk. "
You know what they are going to talk about.
"oh, okay" I said. I had no courage to say anything other than that. We walked to the couch and Jungkook sat beside me, looking directly into my eyes which made my heart race the fastest it could. Yoongi sat on the single couch opposite to us. Baby already went inside to explore the apartment. I sat as formally as I could and rested my hands in my lap.
He took hold of my hands and gently squeezed it which was so so comforting that if he kept doing that I wouldn't be nervous at all.
" look here, you know exactly what I want to talk about. Don't you? And If you are not ready or uncomfortable, you can totally refuse to answer. "
He said in the sweetest voice ever. I took a deep breath and said
" it's okay.. I.. I'm just so sorry you have to deal with me.. I.. Just don't know how to apolog_"
"I need no apology. I need an answer. I want the answer. There is absolutely nothing to apologize for. You are our fan and therefore, family. And also, I consider you as my friend and you should too. Now, answer me and first,  look up.  I'm not eating you or anything. "
Please ,your voice.  My heart is melting..
" I don't know how to answer this but..  It's just a way I cope with my pain and all the problems in my life.
When I was very young my parents divorced, and my mother married another man. That step freak turned out to be abusive. I was abused when my mother was not around. After five years of abuse, my father took my custody from the court and I stayed with my father thereafter. My father married another woman when I was 13. After that,  my father and step mother became mentally abusive. They still are..  And I just.. Just don't know what I do wrong" I explained and his grip on my hand tightened as I continued while my voice started to crack.
" I fell into depression and anxiety when I turned 14 and I still suffer*sob* from them and it feels like shit. It all got worse when I tried to attempt suicide when I was 16. I started getting bullied when I moved to the college here. I have no friends and I fell very lonely. The only happiness I have is my dog and.. Your music... " I finished and I couldn't hold it anymore and I broke down. A tear slipped from his eyes too and he pulled me into a hug.
I felt completely pathetic for making him cry.
" I'm sorry,  I didn't mean to make you cry. " I said.
" Shh..  It's okay. I'm here for you. I'm your best friend from now on. Hmm? It will be fine " he said.  His overwhelming kindness only made me cry louder. He rubbed slow circles on my back occasionally uttering reassuring words. After a few minutes, I felt baby trying to squeeze between the hug making whiny noises. He was jealous.  I smiled and pulled back from the hug and he put his paws on my shoulder, licking my tears away. After that, he went away to continue his exploration mission.
Yoongi got me a glass of water and put his hand over my shoulder and told me, " it's hard but I'm sure you'll make it, just like I did. "
For once, the voices in my head didn't bother me and I felt loved.
"thankyou" I thanked both the boys, adding, " you guys are angels.. ", as I wiped another tear away.
"The other members want to meet you" Yoongi said.
Shit..