The Unspoken Truth

Chapter Four

I wake up to my mom knocking on my door saying "get up, breakfast is ready." I look over to Willow not wanting to disturb her slumber. I remembered that today is the big day so I shake her like crazy and yell "Willow wake up we gotta start getting stuff in the uhaul." She opened her eyes wide I always laugh at her because I scared the shit outta her. Man I miss the good old day when we would stay the night with each other. She's so pretty, her long black hair, and her gorgeous bright blue eyes. I snap back into reality to Willow calling my name "Carmen!" I whip my head towards her and say "yeah" she looks confused "what are you doing? we need to go"  we ate breakfast and packed every last thing into the uhaul, I look at my parents house one last time and tears trickled at my eyes but I try to fight back the tears. Willow and I hop in her truck and my dad drives the uhaul while my mom follows in their car. It's been 3 hours in the car and we ain't even out of the state of Michigan and I'm think to myself why didn't we just fly. I look over to Willow and I just can't help but look at her. I get these feelings around her that I don't know how to explain, I'm so confused. I have dreams of her...and I.... that aren't what best friends do together. I've never told her about the things I day dream about or anything I'm too embarrassed. I mean she's been in a couple of relationships with girls and they never turn out the way she wants and I'm always wanting to tell her my feelings but she's my best friend. I finally speak after an hour of loathing in my own thoughts "Willow can I ask you something?" She turns to me with her cute smile and dimples and this little nose scrunch she does. "Yeah anything what's on your mind hun." I chicken out on what I really was gonna say and blurt out "Can we stop for some food?" I nurvosly look at her knowing red is burned across my face from the thoughts earlier. She looks at me and says "of course I was about to ask you the same thing." I call my parents to let them know about the plan, we all stop to have a nice lunch and laugh and talk about good times. As fast as a blink of an eye we were back on the road it's 10 at night now we stop for a hotel.  We book two rooms and my parents are exhausted so they go right to sleep I turn to Willow and ask her is she wants to go swim for a bit and she agreed. We walk down to the pool and there are a few people there. People are staring at her like she's a goddess, it infuriates me to the extreme I think to myself I know she's hot but damn does everyone have to stare. She and I are just swimming and bullshitting around till we got bored. Once we get up to the room and shut and locked the door I look at her I finally have the balls to say something and express this urge I've been having I walk to her and throw her against the wall and I roughly kiss her. Willow loosens her muscles and let's it happen. I pull away and grab my clothes and get in the shower. Willow pounds on the door yelling my name "Carmen unlock this door now!" I'm washing my hair and ignoring her thinking to myself what did I just do she probably thinks I'm an idiot." Willows voices comes through my thoughts "Carmen open the fucking door and explain to me what that was about!" I shut the shower off and dry off put my boxers and a sports bra on and also sweatpants and a baggy shirt. I've hid the other half of me from her our whole friendship because really I'm not the preppy girl dressing in girly ass clothes. I walk out to meet an angry face that I haven't seen in a long time she looks me up and down and her jaw drops.  She says "who are you?...your not my best friend.." I close my eyes and take a deep breath and say "this is me...."